<?xml version="1.0" encoding="UTF-8"?><rss xmlns:dc="http://purl.org/dc/elements/1.1/" xmlns:content="http://purl.org/rss/1.0/modules/content/" xmlns:atom="http://www.w3.org/2005/Atom" version="2.0" xmlns:itunes="http://www.itunes.com/dtds/podcast-1.0.dtd" xmlns:googleplay="http://www.google.com/schemas/play-podcasts/1.0"><channel><title><![CDATA[The Hyacinth Garden]]></title><description><![CDATA[The Hyacinth Garden]]></description><link>https://thehyacinthgarden.com</link><image><url>https://thehyacinthgarden.com/img/substack.png</url><title>The Hyacinth Garden</title><link>https://thehyacinthgarden.com</link></image><generator>Substack</generator><lastBuildDate>Mon, 14 Sep 2026 10:48:11 GMT</lastBuildDate><atom:link href="https://thehyacinthgarden.com/feed" rel="self" type="application/rss+xml"/><copyright><![CDATA[Nate]]></copyright><language><![CDATA[en]]></language><webMaster><![CDATA[hyacinthgarden@substack.com]]></webMaster><itunes:owner><itunes:email><![CDATA[hyacinthgarden@substack.com]]></itunes:email><itunes:name><![CDATA[Neeraj]]></itunes:name></itunes:owner><itunes:author><![CDATA[Neeraj]]></itunes:author><googleplay:owner><![CDATA[hyacinthgarden@substack.com]]></googleplay:owner><googleplay:email><![CDATA[hyacinthgarden@substack.com]]></googleplay:email><googleplay:author><![CDATA[Neeraj]]></googleplay:author><itunes:block><![CDATA[Yes]]></itunes:block><item><title><![CDATA[Dear Hemingway Family and Foundation: Let Me Let Ernest Speak To Us In Broken Spanish (And Teach The World English)]]></title><description><![CDATA[An overview of my method of stepping-stone languages, a tool I&#8217;ve made and would like to translate The Old Man and the Sea into, in order to help Native Spanish-language speakers learn English.]]></description><link>https://thehyacinthgarden.com/p/dear-hemingway-family-and-foundation</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://thehyacinthgarden.com/p/dear-hemingway-family-and-foundation</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Neeraj]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Thu, 10 Sep 2026 20:02:28 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!17SK!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fe9d80b75-9a1c-4e5a-a40a-16036aef1bc8_922x1117.jpeg" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<h1>What the **** are you doing?</h1><p>I&#8217;m going to outline here a general method that I think will help language learners as they approach a foreign language. </p><p>There are a few ways of communicating the essential sprit of this method. But I&#8217;d like to present it as essentially <strong>the process of creating a stepping stone language</strong> between a learner&#8217;s native language (the source language) and the language they are learning (the target language). What makes this approach easier is that this stepping stone language can be acquired more readily, because it uses only vocabulary from their source language while at the same time reflecting the grammar of the target language. <strong>Once readers have internalized this stepping stone language, they can then slowly begin to substitute the words they learn into it, until they are fully speaking the target language.</strong></p><p>I first developed this system, which can essentially be understood as formalizing &#8220;interlinear gloss&#8221; into its distinct language-system, as an artistic method. </p><p>Language learning today generally begins with learners memorizing a substantial amount of vocabulary before even being introduced to the grammar. It&#8217;s exhausting and doesn&#8217;t lead to anything tangible, and learners are then doubly discouraged when they find out that learning to order the words correctly is its own and greater challenge. It can make a lot of language learners feel like they are performing a lot of labor for very little gain. I want this method to appear to learners like simply reading a strange book, not like generally learning anything at all. And by doing so, they&#8217;ll be doing the harder part first.</p><p>Another way I&#8217;ve communicated its essential sprit before is as a &#8220;hyper-literal&#8221; translation. A more academic version of that would be to call it a &#8220;morphological translation.&#8221; Morphemes refer to the smallest undivided units of meaning in a language.</p><p>The resource I&#8217;ve made below is something I made to help Spanish speakers learn English. And to do so, I&#8217;ve rendered a translation of the opening passages of Hemingway&#8217;s <em>The Old Man and the Sea </em>in this method, preserving all of the general formal rules of English but using only Spanish words.</p><p>If you are bilingual English-Spanish speaker, please look through the grammar rules I include at the end of this article and leave me any suggestions. I&#8217;d like to learn what sounds natural and unnatural to native Spanish speakers. I&#8217;d also be really interested in any suggestions from ESL teachers with mostly hispanic students.</p><h1>El Viejo Hombre y El Mar</h1><div class="callout-block" data-callout="true"><p>&#201;l era un viejo hombre quien pascado en un esquife en el Golfo Corriente y el hab&#237;a ido ochenta-cuatro d&#237;as ahora sin tomando un pez. En el primero cuarenta d&#237;as un ni&#241;o hab&#237;a sido con &#233;l. Pero despu&#233;s cuarenta d&#237;as sin un pez el ni&#241;o-de padres hab&#237;a dicho &#233;l que el viejo hombre fue ahora definitiva y finalmente <em>salao</em>, cual es el peor forma de desafortunado, y el ni&#241;o hab&#237;a ido a suyo &#243;rdenes en un-otro bote cual tomado tres bon peces el primero semana. Eso hecho el ni&#241;o triste a ver el viejo hombre venir-en cada d&#237;a con suyo esquife vac&#237;o y &#233;l siempre iba baja a ayudar lo cargar o el enrollado l&#237;neas o el bichero y arp&#243;n y el vela que fue enrollado alrededor el m&#225;stil. El vela fue remendado con harina sacos y, arrollado, eso parecido como el bandera de permanente derrota.</p><p>El viejo hombre fue flaco y desgarbado con profundos arrugas en el posterior de suyo cuello. El marr&#243;n manchas de el benigno piel c&#225;ncer el sol llevars desde eso-de reflexi&#243;n sobre el tr&#243;pico mar fueron sobre suyos mejillas. El manchas corrido bien baja el lados de suyo cara y suyo manos habido el profundo-doblado cicatrices desde agarrando pesado pez sobre el cabos. Pero ninguno de estos cicatrices fueron fresco. Ellos fueron igual viejo igual erosiones en un pez-menos desierto.</p><p>Cada-cosa acerca-de lo fue viejo excepto suyo ojos y ellos fueron el mismo color igual el mar y fueron alegres y invictos.</p><p>&#8220;Santiago,&#8221; el ni&#241;o dicho a lo igual ellos ascendido el banco desde donde el esquife fue varado arriba. &#8220;Yo podr&#237;a ir con t&#250; otra-vez. Nosotros-han hecho cualquier dinero.&#8221;</p><p>El viejo hombre hab&#237;a ense&#241;ado el ni&#241;o a pescar y el ni&#241;o querido lo.</p><p>&#8220;No,&#8221; el viejo hombre dicho. &#8220;T&#250;-son un con-suerte bote. Quedar con ellos!&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;Pero recordar como tu iba ochenta-siete d&#237;as sin pez y luego nosotros cogido grandes unes cada d&#237;a por tres semanas.&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;Yo recordar,&#8221; el viejo hombre dicho. &#8220;Yo saber tu hecho-no dejado me porque tu dudado.&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;Eso fue papa hecho me dejar. Yo soy un ni&#241;o y yo tener-que obedecer lo.&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;Yo saber,&#8221; el viejo hombre dicho. &#8220;Eso es bien normal.&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;El ha-no tanto fe&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;No,&#8221; el viejo hombre dicho. &#8220;Pero nosotros han. Han-no nosotros?&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;Si,&#8221; el ni&#241;o dicho. &#8220;Puede yo ofrecer t&#250; un cerveza en el terraza y luego tomar el cosas casa.&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;Porque no?&#8221; el hombre viejo dicho. &#8220;Entre pescadores&#8221;</p></div><h1>Why Hemingway? An Appeal to the Hemingway Estate</h1><p>I&#8217;m going to make an ask here of the Hemingway Family and Foundation, as well as Simon and Schuster, who hold the translations rights to this book. If there&#8217;s a lot of positive feedback, and if a lot of native Spanish language speakers show interest in this being a potentially useful tool for them, <strong>please allow me the honor of creating a full translation of The Old Man and the Sea in this capacity. And please, let us make it accessible to everyone who would like to learn English through it. </strong></p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!17SK!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fe9d80b75-9a1c-4e5a-a40a-16036aef1bc8_922x1117.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!17SK!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fe9d80b75-9a1c-4e5a-a40a-16036aef1bc8_922x1117.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!17SK!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fe9d80b75-9a1c-4e5a-a40a-16036aef1bc8_922x1117.jpeg 848w, 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Most intimately, I picked up this copy, written in Cuban Spanish, at the San Carlos Institute when I took a trip to Key West in the winter of 2024 into 2025, on my way back from visiting the Hemingway House. It was the first full-length fiction book I read in Spanish. And for that reason, it will always hold a special place in my heart. It feels strange now to read the book in English. It feels so at-home in Spanish.</p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!dnQA!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Ffb93a701-a172-411e-ae23-4c5d29b25cbd_768x1024.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!dnQA!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Ffb93a701-a172-411e-ae23-4c5d29b25cbd_768x1024.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!dnQA!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Ffb93a701-a172-411e-ae23-4c5d29b25cbd_768x1024.jpeg 848w, 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class="pencraft pc-display-flex pc-gap-8 pc-reset"><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container restack-image"><svg aria-hidden="true" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 20 20" fill="none" stroke-width="1.5" stroke="var(--color-fg-primary)" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg"><g><path d="M2.53001 7.81595C3.49179 4.73911 6.43281 2.5 9.91173 2.5C13.1684 2.5 15.9537 4.46214 17.0852 7.23684L17.6179 8.67647M17.6179 8.67647L18.5002 4.26471M17.6179 8.67647L13.6473 6.91176M17.4995 12.1841C16.5378 15.2609 13.5967 17.5 10.1178 17.5C6.86118 17.5 4.07589 15.5379 2.94432 12.7632L2.41165 11.3235M2.41165 11.3235L1.5293 15.7353M2.41165 11.3235L6.38224 13.0882"></path></g></svg></button><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container view-image"><svg xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" class="lucide lucide-maximize2 lucide-maximize-2"><polyline points="15 3 21 3 21 9"></polyline><polyline points="9 21 3 21 3 15"></polyline><line x1="21" x2="14" y1="3" y2="10"></line><line x1="3" x2="10" y1="21" y2="14"></line></svg></button></div></div></div></a><figcaption class="image-caption">&#8220;I picked up this copy [of <em>The Old Man and the Sea]</em> written in Cuban Spanish at the San Carlos Institute when I took a trip to Key West in the winter of 2024 into 2025.&#8221;</figcaption></figure></div><p>And secondly, it is about a poor fisherman in Cuba, all of his losses and all of his triumphs. It doesn&#8217;t demean or patronize him. Hemingway imagined this man&#8217;s world as interesting, as dramatic, as complicated, and as bittersweet as his own. Hemingway saw himself in the every day working people of Cuba and saw them as ideals to aspire to. Ideals of diligence, and labor, and ambition. </p><p>I want this translation to not only be for Spanish-speakers but about them as well. If we wish for them to see the best in us, through all our misgivings, we must first show just how deeply we see the best in them.</p><p>But more fundamentally, Hemingway&#8217;s writing style, of sparse simple sentences, was almost made for learners. He has the capacity to talk about the most profound things embedded within human existence without needing to use more than a few sentences in an entire novel with more than three clauses. To me, this is as difficult of a book one needs to be able to read to be generally conversational in English. The simplicity of the language and the timelessness of its lessons has no rival.</p><p>Furthermore, if this will be an entryway to people learning English and learning American English, I want Hemingway to be the one to greet them at the gate.</p><p>Hemingway, in addition to being an American&#8217;s idea of an American, is also the rest of the world&#8217;s idea of an American. There is something to be said about Hemingway that can&#8217;t as easily be said about other authors: that understanding him, in some capacity, is to understand America. Our driving spirit, our reckless ambition, our silence in the face of our greatest private struggles.</p><p>So much ink has been spilled about Hemingway, in praise and in denunciation. So much ink has also been spilled about America, in praise and in denunciation. But none seem to be able to actually capture either&#8217;s essence. Perhaps their essences are far too complicated to be summed up as easily, by any singular emotion. We are a messy, complicated, often deeply misunderstood, but also mistaken, country. And just as America is all those things as a nation, Hemingway was as a man.</p><p>So please, let Ernest let Hemingway, who has guided us in so much already, be the one to hold the door open to a new generation of Americans. There&#8217;s no one greater and no one more deserving to hold the keys to the gate, to show everyone who wants to live a life here, that they are entering a land where dreams soar and where no one is ready to fall into their grave, until they are convinced, and they will never be convinced, that they have spent their entirety in the service of something much greater than themselves.</p><h1>Translation Rules (So Far)</h1><h2>Verbs</h2><h3>Regular Verbs</h3><h4>Present tense:</h4><p>To reflect English&#8217;s, sometimes truly puzzling, lack of inflection, the standard form of a verb (whatever follows &#8216;to&#8217; in our fake infinitives like &#8216;to fish&#8217;), is represented by the full infinitive in Spanish.</p><div class="callout-block" data-callout="true"><p>I fish = Yo pascar</p><p>You fish = T&#250; pascar</p><p>We fish = Nosotros pascar</p><p>They fish = Ellos pascar</p></div><p>The only exception is, of course, the third person singular. Here simply add an &#8216;s&#8217; at the end of an infinitive.</p><div class="callout-block" data-callout="true"><p>He fishes / she fishes: el pascars / ella pascars</p></div><h4>Simple past:</h4><p>Since English&#8217;s past participles are most commonly their simple past, I wanted to reflect that in the construction of the simple past. This way, Spanish speakers will know simply to reach for the past participle to get at the simple past. </p><div class="callout-block" data-callout="true"><p>I fished = Yo pascado</p><p>You fished = T&#250; pascado</p><p>He fished / she fishes: el pascado / ella pascado</p><p>We fished = Nosotros pascado</p><p>They fished = Ellos pascado</p></div><p>I suspect some people will be disappointed by this flattening. The outstanding majority of all irregularities in English words happen in the past-tense. But the truth is, this isn&#8217;t something that I think I can take into account all the different ways in which they are irregular in a way that isn&#8217;t going to make this system as complicated as English itself.</p><p>Since irregular past tenses are already something English students spend a lot of time drilling, I&#8217;ll leave perfecting their tenses to the part of their language-learning journey after internalizing the regularities through this system.  </p><h4>Simple future</h4><p>The simple future in English is made by simply preceding the regular verb form with &#8216;will&#8217; or &#8216;shall&#8217;. So all this requires is for us to come up with a set phrase that indicates something naturally in the future in Spanish. </p><p>I went with: &#8220;va-a&#8221;</p><div class="callout-block" data-callout="true"><p>I will fish = Yo va-a pascar.</p></div><h4>Present Participle Tenses:</h4><p>All -ing constructions, whether the gerund or the present participle, use Spanish&#8217;s -ando/iendo endings.  </p><div class="callout-block" data-callout="true"><p>He&#8217;s fishing = el es pascando</p></div><p>We&#8217;ll get how to how &#8216;ser&#8217; is conjugated below in the irregular verbs section.</p><h4>Perfective Tenses:</h4><div class="callout-block" data-callout="true"><p>He has fished = el ha pascado</p><p>He had fished = el hab&#237;a pascado</p><p>I have fished = Yo han pascado</p><p>We have fished = Nosotros han pascado</p><p>They have fished = Ellos han pascado</p><p>We had fished = Nosotros hab&#237;a pascado</p><p>They had fished = Ellos hab&#237;a pascado</p></div><p>Here is the translation for all the forms of &#8216;to have&#8217; to construct any perfective tense</p><div class="callout-block" data-callout="true"><p>has =  ha</p><p>have = han</p><p>had = habido</p></div><h2>Irregular Verbs in the Present </h2><p>Here are the conjugations for all verbs that are </p><p>Estar is dropped completely. All &#8216;to be&#8217; conjugations are done through &#8216;ser&#8217;</p><h3>To be</h3><div class="callout-block" data-callout="true"><p>I am = Yo soy </p><p>You are = T&#250; son </p><p>She is / He is = Ella/el es</p><p>We are = nosotros son</p><p>They are = ellos son </p><p>I was = Yo era</p><p>You were = tu fueron</p><p>He was / she was = el era / ella era</p><p>We were = nosotros fueron</p><p>They were = ellos fueron</p></div><p>Since our other irregular verbs aren&#8217;t even that irregular, I&#8217;ll give very straightforward plug-in translations. These are meant to be valid whenever you see any of these verbs in these forms.</p><p>&#8216;To go&#8217;</p><div class="callout-block" data-callout="true"><p>go = ir</p><p>goes = va</p><p>went = iba</p><p>gone = ido </p></div><p>&#8216;To have&#8217;</p><div class="callout-block" data-callout="true"><p>has =  ha</p><p>have = han</p><p>had = hab&#237;a</p></div><h3>Modal Auxiliaries: </h3><div class="callout-block" data-callout="true"><p>can = puede</p><p>could = podria </p><p>will = va-a</p><p>would = ir&#237;a-a</p></div><h3>Negation Using &#8216;Do(es) not&#8217;</h3><p>In order to negate any verb, we use a mirror of English&#8217;s auxiliary &#8216;do not&#8217; construction.</p><div class="callout-block" data-callout="true"><p>do = hacen </p><p>does = hace</p><p>did = hac&#237;a</p><p>done = hecho</p></div><div class="callout-block" data-callout="true"><p>I do not fish = Yo hacen-no pascar.</p><p>I did not fish = Yo hac&#237;a-no pascar.</p><p>He does not fish = &#201;l hace-no pascar.</p><p>He did not fish = &#201;l hac&#237;a-no pascar.</p><p>We do not fish = Nosotros hacen-no pascar.</p><p>We did not fish = Nosotros hac&#237;a-no pascar.</p></div><h2>Pronouns</h2><h3>Subject and Object Forms of Personal pronouns</h3><p>English has many of the same generaly pronoun categories as Spanish. </p><p>Here are the subject forms</p><div class="callout-block" data-callout="true"><p>I = Yo</p><p>You = T&#250;</p><p>He = &#233;l</p><p>She = ella</p><p>We = Nosotros</p><p>They = Ellos</p></div><p>The object forms are</p><div class="callout-block" data-callout="true"><p>Me = m&#237;</p><p>You = t&#250;</p><p>Him = lo</p><p>She = la</p><p>Us = nos</p><p>Them = los</p></div><p>The object forms are a mix of the prepositional forms and the direct object forms (only for when a case arises in which Spanish re-uses the subject pronoun in its prepositional form as well; there&#8217;s also the case with English&#8217;s you, which is case-independent, so I just used &#8216;t&#250;&#8217;.</p><h3>Demonstrative Pronouns</h3><p>Since Spanish has three distances (esto, eso, aquello) and English two (this, that), Spanish&#8217;s middle distance is dropped, which frees up &#8216;eso&#8217; to be our general translation for &#8216;it,&#8217; which Spanish needs because its pronouns don&#8217;t encode animacy.</p><div class="callout-block" data-callout="true"><p>This = Esto. </p><p>That = Aquello.</p><p>It = Eso.</p></div><p>And since English does not make a different between &#8216;this&#8217; and &#8216;that&#8217; as pronouns or demonstrative adjectives, neither will this system.</p><div class="callout-block" data-callout="true"><p>This boat = Esto bote.</p><p>I like this = Yo querer esto.</p></div><p>Because, Spanish distinguishes its possessive adjectives and possessive pronouns with more precision than English, all the instances in which they are the same, Spanish takes the possessive pronoun to mean both</p><div class="callout-block" data-callout="true"><p>His boat = Suyo bote.</p><p>This boat is his =  Esto bote es suyo.</p></div><p>However, the distinction remains intact where English also makes a distinction between the two.</p><div class="callout-block" data-callout="true"><p>My boat = Mi bote.</p><p>This boat is mine =  Esto bote es mio.</p></div><h2>English&#8217;s Genitive Case</h2><p>the &#8216; &#8216;s &#8217; in English&#8217;s genitive case is always rendered simply &#8216;-de&#8217; </p><div class="callout-block" data-callout="true"><p>Santaigo&#8217;s boat = Santiago-de bote</p></div><h2>Grammatical Gender</h2><p>All grammatical gender is dropped. All gender-variable adjectives in Spanish take the masculine ending.</p><div class="callout-block" data-callout="true"><p>An old man = un viejo hombre</p><p>And old woman = un viejo mujer</p></div><h2>Prepositions</h2><p>All instances in which any of these pronouns are used, they have a very direct translation within the system.</p><div class="callout-block" data-callout="true"><p>to = a </p><p>of = de</p><p>from = desde </p><p>with = con</p><p>by = para</p><p>for = por </p><p>in = en </p><p>without = sin</p><p>as = igual *</p><p>about = acerca-de  </p></div><p>* I&#8217;d like some help on this one. I think it can work with &#8216;igual,&#8217; but it feels to me like there must be a better fit for it. </p><p>&#8216;As&#8217; in English is used in a few contexts, but the two most prominent to my mind is for comparison and temporal constructions. </p><p>It sounds works for the former.</p><div class="callout-block" data-callout="true"><p>He is as tall as her = El es igual grande que la</p></div><p>But it gets awkward with the temporal use</p><div class="callout-block" data-callout="true"><p>&#8216;Santiago&#8217; the boy said to him as they climbed =  &#8216;Santiago,&#8217; el ni&#241;o dicho a lo igual ellos ascendido</p></div><p>Please give me any suggestions.</p><h2>Other points</h2><ul><li><p>All instances of &#8216;to have&#8217; get conjugated using &#8216;haber,&#8217; which is a completely auxiliary verb in Spanish. The more general meaning of &#8216;to have&#8217; is done by &#8216;tener,&#8217; including &#8216;have to&#8217; as an obligation. All of this gets flattened into &#8216;haber&#8217; in this system to impress onto the reader that there is no distinction in English. I think it&#8217;s a better choice, since &#8216;to have&#8217; and &#8216;haber&#8217; are much more similar phonetically. </p></li><li><p>&#8216;Estar&#8217; is dropped completely. All &#8216;to be&#8217; constructions are done through &#8216;ser&#8217;.</p></li></ul>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[Question: “9-5 related burnout is affecting my creativity. How do I balance the ‘professional’ and ‘creative’?”]]></title><description><![CDATA[Would it be harsh to say that I don&#8217;t think there&#8217;s any real way to balance them?]]></description><link>https://thehyacinthgarden.com/p/question-9-5-related-burnout-is-affecting</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://thehyacinthgarden.com/p/question-9-5-related-burnout-is-affecting</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Neeraj]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Wed, 09 Sep 2026 19:49:06 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!B5c3!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F08c526b0-a4cf-40e8-9e6e-f49661588e3b_600x424.jpeg" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Would it be harsh to say that I don&#8217;t think there&#8217;s any real way to balance them?</p><p>I think the idea that they can is useful to some , and has been used both by employers and employees for different ends at different times. I&#8217;m reminded of this very charming American Labor Movement poster arguing for a 40 day workweek. </p><p>But I don&#8217;t think the separation it tries to celebrate has ever been achievable. Time to yourself can never be fully detached from time spent elsewhere.</p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!B5c3!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F08c526b0-a4cf-40e8-9e6e-f49661588e3b_600x424.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!B5c3!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F08c526b0-a4cf-40e8-9e6e-f49661588e3b_600x424.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!B5c3!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F08c526b0-a4cf-40e8-9e6e-f49661588e3b_600x424.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!B5c3!,w_1272,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F08c526b0-a4cf-40e8-9e6e-f49661588e3b_600x424.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!B5c3!,w_1456,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F08c526b0-a4cf-40e8-9e6e-f49661588e3b_600x424.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw"><img src="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!B5c3!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F08c526b0-a4cf-40e8-9e6e-f49661588e3b_600x424.jpeg" width="600" height="424" data-attrs="{&quot;src&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/08c526b0-a4cf-40e8-9e6e-f49661588e3b_600x424.jpeg&quot;,&quot;srcNoWatermark&quot;:null,&quot;fullscreen&quot;:null,&quot;imageSize&quot;:null,&quot;height&quot;:424,&quot;width&quot;:600,&quot;resizeWidth&quot;:null,&quot;bytes&quot;:76196,&quot;alt&quot;:null,&quot;title&quot;:null,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;image/jpeg&quot;,&quot;href&quot;:null,&quot;belowTheFold&quot;:false,&quot;topImage&quot;:true,&quot;internalRedirect&quot;:&quot;https://thehyacinthgarden.com/i/214938772?img=https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F08c526b0-a4cf-40e8-9e6e-f49661588e3b_600x424.jpeg&quot;,&quot;isProcessing&quot;:false,&quot;align&quot;:null,&quot;offset&quot;:false}" class="sizing-normal" alt="" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!B5c3!,w_424,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F08c526b0-a4cf-40e8-9e6e-f49661588e3b_600x424.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!B5c3!,w_848,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F08c526b0-a4cf-40e8-9e6e-f49661588e3b_600x424.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!B5c3!,w_1272,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F08c526b0-a4cf-40e8-9e6e-f49661588e3b_600x424.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!B5c3!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F08c526b0-a4cf-40e8-9e6e-f49661588e3b_600x424.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw" fetchpriority="high"></picture><div class="image-link-expand"><div class="pencraft pc-display-flex pc-gap-8 pc-reset"><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container restack-image"><svg aria-hidden="true" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 20 20" fill="none" stroke-width="1.5" stroke="var(--color-fg-primary)" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg"><g><path d="M2.53001 7.81595C3.49179 4.73911 6.43281 2.5 9.91173 2.5C13.1684 2.5 15.9537 4.46214 17.0852 7.23684L17.6179 8.67647M17.6179 8.67647L18.5002 4.26471M17.6179 8.67647L13.6473 6.91176M17.4995 12.1841C16.5378 15.2609 13.5967 17.5 10.1178 17.5C6.86118 17.5 4.07589 15.5379 2.94432 12.7632L2.41165 11.3235M2.41165 11.3235L1.5293 15.7353M2.41165 11.3235L6.38224 13.0882"></path></g></svg></button><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container view-image"><svg xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" class="lucide lucide-maximize2 lucide-maximize-2"><polyline points="15 3 21 3 21 9"></polyline><polyline points="9 21 3 21 3 15"></polyline><line x1="21" x2="14" y1="3" y2="10"></line><line x1="3" x2="10" y1="21" y2="14"></line></svg></button></div></div></div></a></figure></div><p>I feel like I&#8217;ve learned my body and its energy levels quite well. My most productive hours are the few hours after I wake up. And having to spend those in the train to work and then at work itself, on sometimes some of the pointless things in existence, was truly soul crushing. </p><p>For me, there was a unique torture in feeling the poetry flowing within me and having to draft some bullshit email or sit motionless in a meeting or have to type my ideas in a rush on my phone walking to work in the middle of a thousand other stressed-out New Yorkers. 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stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" class="lucide lucide-maximize2 lucide-maximize-2"><polyline points="15 3 21 3 21 9"></polyline><polyline points="9 21 3 21 3 15"></polyline><line x1="21" x2="14" y1="3" y2="10"></line><line x1="3" x2="10" y1="21" y2="14"></line></svg></button></div></div></div></a><figcaption class="image-caption">Poem 13 from Gitanjali, about the pain in being away from your creative mind when a flood of song was scheduled to flow through you.</figcaption></figure></div><p>That being said, however, there are jobs I&#8217;ve had that have supercharged my writing with time. My first job out of grad-school was as an analyst at a hedge-fund, trading energy futures. I had a rough time in that role, but there were a lot of things I learned and had a rude awakening to there that I know have edified me as a person. I&#8217;ve thought of writing about it more directly, but I&#8217;ve chosen over and over not to, because I find parts of it everywhere else (everything from the math, which often involved subjects beyond my engineering curriculum like Complex Analysis, to everything I had to learn about humans and what becomes of them when they worship at the idol-altar of money). </p><p>I don&#8217;t think I would be half as interesting of a writer as I am now without having had to work as an engineer for several years now. I can think of a few other writers in this vein: Thomas Pynchon, Joseph Conrad etc. And I can think of a lot of contemporary writers who have a doubtless gift for expression but, because they are coddled nepo-babies and always have been, have nothing meaningful to say, because they aren&#8217;t trying to find poetry in the unspoken, only in the spoken-a-thousand-times-already. Nor would they know where to find the unspoken if given a map with it marked under an X. </p><p>I don&#8217;t believe there is a unity in the self. You are not one thing and never have been. You are an amalgamation of perceptions (chosen and unchosen) and subsequent thought processes all forced into a space where one can see the other, called the self. That said, however, because every part of ourselves affects every other, I do believe we all work better for ourselves when we consider ourselves a self. In the same way that teams work together with ample communication and when in unison towards the same goals.</p><p>Therefore, try to unify your work and your writing as best you can. Let one lean on the other, and let them unify in you as parts of a unified project. There are jobs for which this is obviously easier for and jobs for which this is obviously harder for, and there&#8217;s always going to be some level of dissonance between the two.</p><p>But I think that&#8217;s the only way for them to exist peacefully beside each other. Otherwise, they will always be in conflict because they have different needs, and one is always going to try and eliminate the other.</p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!4ucI!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F7297fab7-a98d-4be1-bf49-c7a9a64eeb7d_1536x2048.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!4ucI!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F7297fab7-a98d-4be1-bf49-c7a9a64eeb7d_1536x2048.jpeg 424w, 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url="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!lwrx!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F385eab1f-96d6-48c7-8cd9-cd5efd43824b_1158x758.png" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<p><strong>For my one and singular language learning tip: skip to the last few paragraphs in the second section.</strong></p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!lwrx!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F385eab1f-96d6-48c7-8cd9-cd5efd43824b_1158x758.png" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" 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stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" class="lucide lucide-maximize2 lucide-maximize-2"><polyline points="15 3 21 3 21 9"></polyline><polyline points="9 21 3 21 3 15"></polyline><line x1="21" x2="14" y1="3" y2="10"></line><line x1="3" x2="10" y1="21" y2="14"></line></svg></button></div></div></div></a><figcaption class="image-caption">The first five lines from the Gospel of John (KJV)</figcaption></figure></div><p>I&#8217;m not sure! I&#8217;m pretty the scholars don&#8217;t really know either. But it is strange that it has to be difficult. We don&#8217;t have the same difficulty representing information in very different ways in other contexts. So yes, there is something about language!</p><p>I think it&#8217;s because our consciousness and our capacity to communicate are deeply entwined. My belief is that our ability to perceive our own thoughts probably came about in order to, or was at least instrumental to, communicate. I don&#8217;t feel like we would have needed the fidelity to examine our thoughts that we do if we hadn&#8217;t needed to clearly communicate them. There are lot of other things our body is fine relegating to the completely unconscious. I feel this way because I&#8217;ve seen over and over again that I do not know my thoughts until I express them.</p><p>All this to state the obvious: that learning a new language is often learning an entirely new way of ordering your thoughts. It also changes the thoughts that are closer to you and within reach.</p><p>I think a reason ancient literary languages became liturgical so quickly (like Biblical Hebrew, Sanskrit, Quranic Arabic) is because people found that their thoughts automatically point more to God when thinking in those languages, because thoughts about God are all they ever heard expressed in that language! So it became a firewall, keeping regular thoughts, expressed most commonly in regular speech, out.</p><p>I don&#8217;t think language is thought and therefore God / Divine Wisdom (Hagia Sophia) like a lot of Hindu as well as Christian and Jewish and Muslim sages have believed. But I do believe it is the best vehicle to examine thought. Learning a new language, at the very least, gives you an entirely new entryway into your thoughts.</p><p>Perhaps writers might be scared by this idea, but something I noticed happening once I started learning more languages well is that my internal dialogue got quieter. And now, I don&#8217;t hear it at all unless I want to. I remember how, when I could only really claim to express myself well in one language, how all my thoughts would come to me only as I would have expressed them in English. I would save images I saw with captions, which were the words that came to my mind when seeing that image. But after learning a few languages very well, I&#8217;ve found that thoughts no longer come to me in words. They come to as something more basic. </p><p>I think that more fundamental form of thought has always existed in me, beneath the words that used to make up my internal dialogue, but I suppose it lingers there without needing translation now that I have multiple avenues to express it. It allows me to linger on the raw experience of that for longer. But I also I find that it makes them more fleeting. I can fix them in place, of course, by translating them, assigning them words in one language or another, but that would be taking a photocopy of them. You lose information, compress it, when you do so and can&#8217;t always go back to the raw data as easily.</p><p>The benefits of learning a language on brain health are clearly demonstrated in the scientific literature, but I do think learning a language is in some capacity more fundamentally empowering for your thought processes than an equivalent activity that stimulates the brain as much but doesn&#8217;t force you to restructure your thoughts as fundamentally. I do believe it helped me unlock a greater level of abstraction in my mind. If there&#8217;s a double-blind controlled study with an impressive sample size that refutes that idea, please fold it into a paper airplane and fly it towards me. I will review it in my leisure.</p><p>Anywho, I don&#8217;t know why it&#8217;s hard. I don&#8217;t know why anything has to be hard. I don&#8217;t know why life has to come with its difficulties in order to be meaningful, but it does, and here we are within it, alive. So enjoy your thoughts while you can, in whatever language you can. They&#8217;re all you have. You have never experienced anything outside of your thoughts.</p><div><hr></div><p><strong>In terms of advice on learning languages,</strong> do as the Youtube videos with thumbnails such as &#8220;This One Insane Language Learning Trick Changed My Life! (100% Fluent Native Accent)&#8221; say you must do. Most of it is good advice for people who are very lost and don&#8217;t know where to begin.</p><p>But a piece of advice I would give, and which they rarely do, is this: learn your own language first. Try to find a course dedicated to teaching your native language to non-natives. That, surely, can&#8217;t be intimidating! Learn the names of all the tenses and parts of speech you use every day but never even really thought had a name. Once you&#8217;ve done this, it&#8217;ll be easier for you to understand the structure of another language, because at least now you&#8217;re familiar with the structure of your own. Expect to rethink so much of your own thoughts as you do this. You&#8217;ll already find yourself investigating your thoughts deeper as you do this.</p><p>Recursive thoughts, thoughts about thoughts, thinking about thinking, in Cabalistic Judaism as well as Buddhism and pretty much all branches of Non-Dualistic Hindu Philosophy, are considered the bedrock of spiritual thinking. And perhaps, you need to join us, on this side of the river of language, to see why we say so.</p><p>Language is such a beautiful tool. If I ever had to re-write Genesis, I would have Eve grasp for the fruit of knowledge and Adam grasp for the fruit of language to express that knowledge. I don&#8217;t think one would have reason to exist without the other. I think it was the utility in expressing our perspective that made it important to have a perspective, thus creating the self, thus pushing us out of Eden, into this strange fugue state called consciousness, where we see the Dao, and the world and Spinoza&#8217;s God, unfolding continually before us but can no longer simply be a part of it, here where we feel we must ask questions about its every turn, even though we know the true reasons for things are indelibly beyond us, and always will be. </p><div class="subscription-widget-wrap-editor" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://thehyacinthgarden.com/subscribe?&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Subscribe&quot;,&quot;language&quot;:&quot;en&quot;}" data-component-name="SubscribeWidgetToDOM"><div class="subscription-widget show-subscribe"><div class="preamble"><p class="cta-caption">Thanks for reading The Hyacinth Garden! Subscribe for free to receive new posts and support my work.</p></div><form class="subscription-widget-subscribe"><input type="email" class="email-input" name="email" placeholder="Type your email&#8230;" tabindex="-1"><input type="submit" class="button primary" value="Subscribe"><div class="fake-input-wrapper"><div class="fake-input"></div><div class="fake-button"></div></div></form></div></div><p></p>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[Advice Column: How do I work up the courage to fix my drafts and keep at it?]]></title><description><![CDATA[This question was submitted on Instagram:]]></description><link>https://thehyacinthgarden.com/p/advice-column-how-do-i-work-up-the</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://thehyacinthgarden.com/p/advice-column-how-do-i-work-up-the</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Neeraj]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Mon, 07 Sep 2026 17:41:27 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!2mXB!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F8ce29bad-7c83-4ba8-8419-a4d0eaf4936a_900x609.jpeg" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>This question was submitted on Instagram: </p><div class="callout-block" data-callout="true"><p>&#8220;I&#8217;m trying to rewrite Silappadikaram. I have a draft but I&#8217;m afraid of it. It was my thesis! It was dogshit. How do I work up the courage to fix it and keep at it?&#8221;</p></div><p>That sounds like a beautiful project! I still remember when my mother told me the story of Kannagi as a child and reading the Amar Chitra Katha comic book retelling of it.</p><p>If you want courage, I would meditate on just how beautiful and transgressive of a story it is and how lucky we are as Tamil people to have it as one of our founding poetic works.</p><p>I won&#8217;t say it&#8217;s progressive in our modern sense, but the way it represents female anger as purifying is something that would still disturb, let&#8217;s say, more &#8220;traditionally minded&#8221; people. And paying attention to women&#8217;s anger instead of dismissing it outright is still something we struggle with.</p><p>But I think more fundamentally, like the Bhagavad Gita says: all you&#8217;re entitled to is your labor, not the rewards you imagine coming from it. So lose yourself in the labor, and try to find it fun and exciting for its own sake. Don&#8217;t fixate on it as a finished project, and soon you&#8217;ll have something beautiful.</p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!2mXB!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F8ce29bad-7c83-4ba8-8419-a4d0eaf4936a_900x609.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!2mXB!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F8ce29bad-7c83-4ba8-8419-a4d0eaf4936a_900x609.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!2mXB!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F8ce29bad-7c83-4ba8-8419-a4d0eaf4936a_900x609.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!2mXB!,w_1272,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F8ce29bad-7c83-4ba8-8419-a4d0eaf4936a_900x609.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!2mXB!,w_1456,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F8ce29bad-7c83-4ba8-8419-a4d0eaf4936a_900x609.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw"><img src="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!2mXB!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F8ce29bad-7c83-4ba8-8419-a4d0eaf4936a_900x609.jpeg" width="900" height="609" data-attrs="{&quot;src&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/8ce29bad-7c83-4ba8-8419-a4d0eaf4936a_900x609.jpeg&quot;,&quot;srcNoWatermark&quot;:null,&quot;fullscreen&quot;:null,&quot;imageSize&quot;:null,&quot;height&quot;:609,&quot;width&quot;:900,&quot;resizeWidth&quot;:null,&quot;bytes&quot;:172636,&quot;alt&quot;:null,&quot;title&quot;:null,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;image/jpeg&quot;,&quot;href&quot;:null,&quot;belowTheFold&quot;:false,&quot;topImage&quot;:true,&quot;internalRedirect&quot;:&quot;https://thehyacinthgarden.com/i/214611027?img=https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F8ce29bad-7c83-4ba8-8419-a4d0eaf4936a_900x609.jpeg&quot;,&quot;isProcessing&quot;:false,&quot;align&quot;:null,&quot;offset&quot;:false}" class="sizing-normal" alt="" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!2mXB!,w_424,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F8ce29bad-7c83-4ba8-8419-a4d0eaf4936a_900x609.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!2mXB!,w_848,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F8ce29bad-7c83-4ba8-8419-a4d0eaf4936a_900x609.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!2mXB!,w_1272,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F8ce29bad-7c83-4ba8-8419-a4d0eaf4936a_900x609.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!2mXB!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F8ce29bad-7c83-4ba8-8419-a4d0eaf4936a_900x609.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw" fetchpriority="high"></picture><div class="image-link-expand"><div class="pencraft pc-display-flex pc-gap-8 pc-reset"><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container restack-image"><svg aria-hidden="true" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 20 20" fill="none" stroke-width="1.5" stroke="var(--color-fg-primary)" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg"><g><path d="M2.53001 7.81595C3.49179 4.73911 6.43281 2.5 9.91173 2.5C13.1684 2.5 15.9537 4.46214 17.0852 7.23684L17.6179 8.67647M17.6179 8.67647L18.5002 4.26471M17.6179 8.67647L13.6473 6.91176M17.4995 12.1841C16.5378 15.2609 13.5967 17.5 10.1178 17.5C6.86118 17.5 4.07589 15.5379 2.94432 12.7632L2.41165 11.3235M2.41165 11.3235L1.5293 15.7353M2.41165 11.3235L6.38224 13.0882"></path></g></svg></button><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container view-image"><svg xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" class="lucide lucide-maximize2 lucide-maximize-2"><polyline points="15 3 21 3 21 9"></polyline><polyline points="9 21 3 21 3 15"></polyline><line x1="21" x2="14" y1="3" y2="10"></line><line x1="3" x2="10" y1="21" y2="14"></line></svg></button></div></div></div></a><figcaption class="image-caption">&#8220;Mahabharata&#8221; by Sebastian Joseph</figcaption></figure></div><div class="subscription-widget-wrap-editor" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://thehyacinthgarden.com/subscribe?&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Subscribe&quot;,&quot;language&quot;:&quot;en&quot;}" data-component-name="SubscribeWidgetToDOM"><div class="subscription-widget show-subscribe"><div class="preamble"><p class="cta-caption">Thanks for reading The Hyacinth Garden! Subscribe for free to receive new posts and support my work.</p></div><form class="subscription-widget-subscribe"><input type="email" class="email-input" name="email" placeholder="Type your email&#8230;" tabindex="-1"><input type="submit" class="button primary" value="Subscribe"><div class="fake-input-wrapper"><div class="fake-input"></div><div class="fake-button"></div></div></form></div></div><p></p>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[Advice Column: “How do you handle burnout or the thoughts that your story isn't enough?”]]></title><description><![CDATA[This question was submitted on Instagram.]]></description><link>https://thehyacinthgarden.com/p/advice-column-how-do-you-handle-burnout</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://thehyacinthgarden.com/p/advice-column-how-do-you-handle-burnout</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Neeraj]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Mon, 07 Sep 2026 17:34:44 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!65YZ!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fd093b029-433b-4cf1-88e4-73928a8e79e1_5221x6735.jpeg" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>This question was submitted on Instagram.</p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!65YZ!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fd093b029-433b-4cf1-88e4-73928a8e79e1_5221x6735.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!65YZ!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fd093b029-433b-4cf1-88e4-73928a8e79e1_5221x6735.jpeg 424w, 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class="image-link-expand"><div class="pencraft pc-display-flex pc-gap-8 pc-reset"><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container restack-image"><svg aria-hidden="true" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 20 20" fill="none" stroke-width="1.5" stroke="var(--color-fg-primary)" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg"><g><path d="M2.53001 7.81595C3.49179 4.73911 6.43281 2.5 9.91173 2.5C13.1684 2.5 15.9537 4.46214 17.0852 7.23684L17.6179 8.67647M17.6179 8.67647L18.5002 4.26471M17.6179 8.67647L13.6473 6.91176M17.4995 12.1841C16.5378 15.2609 13.5967 17.5 10.1178 17.5C6.86118 17.5 4.07589 15.5379 2.94432 12.7632L2.41165 11.3235M2.41165 11.3235L1.5293 15.7353M2.41165 11.3235L6.38224 13.0882"></path></g></svg></button><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container view-image"><svg xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" class="lucide lucide-maximize2 lucide-maximize-2"><polyline points="15 3 21 3 21 9"></polyline><polyline points="9 21 3 21 3 15"></polyline><line x1="21" x2="14" y1="3" y2="10"></line><line x1="3" x2="10" y1="21" y2="14"></line></svg></button></div></div></div></a><figcaption class="image-caption"><em>Anxiety</em> by Edvard Munch (1894)</figcaption></figure></div><p>Thank you so much for the thoughtful question!</p><p>Firstly, obviously the solution to burnout is rest, but I think rest is a lot harder than people imagine. What I&#8217;ve figured out, for me is that feeling truly rested hinges on I) my physical body feeling stable (like it&#8217;s eaten enough, got enough sleep, etc.) and 2) my desire to get back to work and my capacity to find it interesting</p><p>I&#8217;ve found that taking time away from work only achieves the first. I&#8217;ve discovered that, for me, rest needs to be active. It needs to be something that&#8217;s tiring in its own way: time spent on an activity I&#8217;m excited to make progress on, but which is unrelated to what I&#8217;m burned out from.</p><p>Something that worked for me is giving myself a &#8220;Shabbos&#8221; haha, one day a week in which I don&#8217;t allow myself to work on my your tasks and instead spend it in active rest.</p><p>As to the second question: that feeling will never leave you. There&#8217;s a letter Steinbeck wrote to a friend where, even after multiple best-sellers, he still remains riddled with self doubt. There&#8217;s a beautiful book called &#8220;Of Course You Always End Up Becoming Yourself&#8221; that goes through the same journey with David Foster-Wallace.</p><p>You have to give yourself the hope that it&#8217;s worth the time and labor. It&#8217;s a hope you have to find for yourself.</p><p>There is no lasting source of external validation to give it to you. So just believe that your work is beautiful, and if you believe it, and don&#8217;t forget to believe it, I think, that feeling will soon disappear in time!</p><p></p><div class="subscription-widget-wrap-editor" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://thehyacinthgarden.com/subscribe?&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Subscribe&quot;,&quot;language&quot;:&quot;en&quot;}" data-component-name="SubscribeWidgetToDOM"><div class="subscription-widget show-subscribe"><div class="preamble"><p class="cta-caption">Thanks for reading The Hyacinth Garden! Subscribe for free to receive new posts and support my work.</p></div><form class="subscription-widget-subscribe"><input type="email" class="email-input" name="email" placeholder="Type your email&#8230;" tabindex="-1"><input type="submit" class="button primary" value="Subscribe"><div class="fake-input-wrapper"><div class="fake-input"></div><div class="fake-button"></div></div></form></div></div>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[Enta-Entee]]></title><description><![CDATA[A Short Story]]></description><link>https://thehyacinthgarden.com/p/antha-anthee</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://thehyacinthgarden.com/p/antha-anthee</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Neeraj]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Sat, 05 Sep 2026 18:18:33 GMT</pubDate><content:encoded><![CDATA[<p><span>When I first came to Beirut, I thought it was the center of the world. Where I grew up, in Halba, an hour away from Tripoli on the French roads, it was Tripoli that had always been the big city to us. Beirut seemed another world. The way I heard it spoken of at home, of expensive trips to Beirut that the neighbor&#8217;s neighbor took but which we could never afford, it might as well have belonged to another country.</span></p><p><span>Sitting in Religion and then Quran class after, with the tight hijab my mother tied around my head, it melted into my mind the same way Babylon, Jerusalem, Baghdad, Cordoba, Mecca and Medina did. Distant faraway cities, where people once found God, or found wisdom, or found love, around every corner.</span></p><p><span>But walking through Hamra, in soon-to-be-West Beirut for the first time when I was 26 years old&#8211;with my hair down, with my steps close in my long French pencil skirt, with the neon signs hanging from the Parisian-style buildings shining light off the rain over the Ottoman-paved cobblestone streets, with the young men and the young women, their hair shorter and skirts tighter than mine, their arms crossed within each other&#8217;s, walking into and out of bars together&#8211;I thought, surely, this must be the center of the world.</span></p><p><span>Damascus under the Umayyads. Baghdad under the Abbasids. Istanbul under the Ottomans.</span></p><p><span>Did all those great cities of the past also only realize they were the center of the world when it was clear a great war was at their steps? When their crowns had already fallen from their heads, though it hadn&#8217;t yet hit the ground?</span></p><p><span>This was the winter of 1974 into 1975. And the whole country knew where it was heading. They knew it even when they didn&#8217;t know it, even when they denied it because they didn&#8217;t want it to be true.</span></p><p><span>Everyone living in Beirut knew it, with one bomb after another set off one month after another. And the people in the countryside knew it, because no ever told them the old war ended. And though we believed we knew better, those of us closer to the cities also knew we didn&#8217;t know better at the same time. This world of uncertainty had made us no wiser than every peasant who could not tell you the name of the language they were speaking. It was cruel for us young people then, fresh from school, whether educated in Arabic or French or (more recently) English, to know that, for all our knowledge, we were none the wiser about all the things in life that actually mattered.</span></p><p><span>And once it started, in a way, we weren&#8217;t even really sure which war it was we wanted to end. Perhaps war had ended for others, for the people in countries strong enough to remove themselves from it. But it never really ended for us. It could not have ended, because we could really remember a time in which we had peace.</span></p><p><span>Perhaps it was the war that started in 1947 in Irsael-once-Palestine or Palestine-once-Israel. Perhaps it was the war that started in 1939 in Poland. Perhaps it was the war started in 1099, when the Christians first returned to Jerusalem and turned the sandy streets muddy with blood. Perhaps it was the war that started in 624 when Peace-Be-Upon-Him declared war on the Qureshis. Perhaps it was the war that was started before time was made or after the first time was lost, when the Israelites, led by Joshua, crossed the Jordan and encircled Jericho and slaughtered everyone within.</span></p><p><span>Perhaps it was the war that started yesterday, though we didn&#8217;t know it yet, with the last bomb set off in East Beirut.</span></p><p><span>But the lights and music down Hamra Street made you forget. It made you forget war. It made you forget heartbreak. It made you forget God, and it made you forget that it is when you forget Him that He is there, beside you, the closest.</span></p><p><span>After ordering a single drink&#8211;looking and then looking away at the men in the bar and the men in the street with their shirts open halfway down&#8211;I walked back home, stumbling on the cobblestone streets in my heels, back home to my small apartment the music label rented for me on Rue Alfred Nobel, between Rue Marie Curie and Rue Moustafa Kamel.</span></p><p><span>I chuckled every time I had to give directions home in a taxi. I imagined the three of them, Alfred Nobel, Marie Curie, and Ataturk, sitting there smoking on that street corner, unsure of what to say to each other.</span></p><p><span>The day after, I was going to meet Ziad, the composer. I had always sung, all through my younger years. And I couldn&#8217;t help but think of all those years as I walked into my apartment complex, past the lobby where I would ask the man behind the front desk to ring my parents&#8217; number. I knew it would take a moment for my mother to get to the phone. It was the number to the village pharmacy, and it would take time for them to call up to my mother on the third floor above them, and it would take time for her to come down the stairs slowly, panting. So I went upstairs first to change into my house clothes before heading back down.</span></p><p><span>When I came back down, the man behind the counter said, &#8220;Now he-rings.&#8221; I thanked him and walked into the phone booth with the receiver and the handset, leaving the door only slightly ajar to make for the phone cable.</span></p><p><span>Listening to the phone ring and ring and ring, I thought back to the tight hijabs she wrapped around my head; I thought about the singing lessons she gave me as a child; I thought about the song contests she made me enter as a child; I thought about when I was 13 years old and I told her that I didn&#8217;t want to be to one to have to fulfill her dreams, that I never wanted to sing again.</span></p><p><span>And I thought about the day my father explained to me that women were not allowed to sing the call-to-prayer, and that it was correct that it was so; and I thought about the week my father came home with a new word: Osteosarcoma.</span></p><p><span>I thought about the week he died, as it settled on me that I was finally free; I thought about how we drove to Tripoli the morning of the first song contest I would sing as an adult, in the taxi with Ummi, as she screamed at the driver to go faster, as I rested my voice; I thought about the way I only looked to her for confirmation as I sung on stage, her there in the audience in her night-black niqab. All I could see of her was her face, like the moon, sobbing as she watched her only daughter singing </span><em><span>Ya Aachikata el Wardi</span></em><span> in front of an awed crowd.</span></p><p><span>When someone finally picked up the phone, I first heard the pharmacist, &#8220;Ya binti, stay-you on-the-line. Here-she mother-yours. Now she-comes.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>And soon I heard my mother&#8217;s voice, &#8220;All&#244;? All&#244;o?&#8221; We spoke quietly, for about five minutes. She asked me if I was nervous. I said no. &#8220;Akeed! </span><em><span>Of course</span></em><span>!&#8221; she said then defiantly, as if it would have been stupid of me if I had been nervous. &#8220;With-you the-loveliest voice in-the-world, ya binti, o daughter-my, and-this-composer in-the-self called-had-he-for-you. Hope-his, not will he-fail, and if failed-had-he, he the-fool.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>***</span></p><p><span>When I met Ziad the next day, he was who I expected him to be. I got to the studio early. He got there late, leaving me and the label&#8217;s executive waiting: waiting for 30 minutes for the phone call informing us why he was running late, and another 15 for him to be at the door.</span></p><p><span>When Ziad finally arrived, he was wearing sunglasses, and when he removed them, revealed two dark, hazel, barely-rested eyes. He had a thin face and thinning curly black hair and a full beard. It was clear he had been out all night. But no one bothered accusing him of it. Nor would he have been bothered to have been accused of it. He simply gave us a short apology and said that he had had a late night.</span></p><p><span>He was 31 then, and I was 26. He had spent the last five years making a name for himself, singing in Arabic and in French, with men and women, with Christians and Muslims and Druzes, in stern support of the Palestinians but then in mockery of their fanatics. Making a name for himself and making an enemy out of every political faction in the country while doing so.</span></p><p><span>But his songs drifted down Hamra Street every night, from the clubs, from the bars, from the car radios. And they enchanted you when they did.</span></p><p><span>And I was here with him now, having spent my last five years waiting for my father to die. And we were going to make an album together: love songs. But I already knew, and he already knew, and the label&#8217;s producer already knew, though didn&#8217;t know that he had already known, that it was soon going to become about something much more than love. As little as love could be torn away from history, politics, society, God.</span></p><p><span>He showed me to the studio room. He pointed to the live room where I would sing. A control room where he would listen and produce. And the label executive smiled at us and told us cheerfully to get to work.</span></p><p><span>And we did. We spent the entire day singing, with me in the live room, and him across that misty glass in the control room. He never had songs written down. &#8220;Writing-of-them,&#8221; he said to me that first day, &#8220;she-kills-them even before-what they-being-born-they.&#8221; So he would sing what he had in mind, and I would sing it after him. And he would sing his corrections, and I would sing it back to him until he was happy. And we moved through our first song like that, slowly, line by line, then couplet by couplet, then verse by verse.</span></p><p><span>That was the first day I had to remind him that it needs to be &#8220;Enta (&#8216;</span><em><span>you&#8217; when said to a man</span></em><span>),&#8221; if it&#8217;s going to be heard in my voice when singing to a lover, not &#8220;Anthee (&#8216;</span><em><span>you&#8217; when said to a woman</span></em><span>).&#8221; But he just waved off the suggestion. &#8220;You knowing what intended-had-I,&#8221; he said.</span></p><p><span>He couldn&#8217;t help it. When he was there, lost in the music, it came to him &#8220;Entee,&#8221; and he couldn&#8217;t bother, perhaps couldn&#8217;t risk, taking himself away from the music long enough to remember to say, &#8220;Enta.&#8221; That&#8217;s what convinced me that that song was about someone real. Some woman whose heart he must have broken but who broke his heart even worse in return. </span><em><span>Enough, Enough, Oh love, Enough.</span></em></p><p><span>And we fell in love. Of course we did. That very day, though we hadn&#8217;t known it yet. He wasn&#8217;t the most attractive man, but if you watched him lose himself in the music, you would see how easy it was to fall in love with him, watching all his facades fall off one by one, seeing his heart slowly shine through, seeing him turn back into a child, overcome by emotion, sitting there alone beyond the glass, without comfort, without love.</span></p><p><span>Sitting with him on his side of the studio in the control room, at the end of the day, finally getting to hear all the best and worst takes we recorded that day, listening to him talk about what he thought the song still needed, I saw the wisdom in many of his suggestions but none in many others.</span></p><p><span>Then we sat quietly, letting the best takes we recorded that day play on repeat over the bare instrumentals he recorded in his apartment, each drinking a short glass of cognac that he had poured.</span></p><p><span> He closed his eyes when he felt it reach his head, and leaned back. It&#8217;s almost as if the rhythm came clearer to him then. I watched him, there with his eyes closed, as I wouldn&#8217;t have wanted to be seen watching him with his eyes open, and I thought of Hafez. All those poems about wine and music and love.</span></p><p><span>I walked home that night still tipsy from the cognac. The car radios that passed informed me another bomb had been set off in East Beirut. But all I heard was our music.</span></p><p><span>***</span></p><p><span>When I returned to work the next day, he was already there.</span></p><p><span>I marched into the studio. </span><em><span>&#8220;I know where to take the song.&#8221;</span></em></p><p><span>&#8220;That, known-had-I from-before,&#8221; he said. &#8220;But let-us we-see if have-arrived-we to-same the-place.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>So, I walked into the live room, turned on the microphones, took a long breath, and began singing. I opened my eyes only sparingly to see his reaction across the glass. But every time I did, I saw him only nodding harder, only smiling wider. And I knew that, though kept separate the whole night, we had come to the same place, had perhaps even followed the same path.</span></p><p><span>We both knew, though neither of us knew we already knew, that that song was over. All that remained was us to find the perfect takes and the right mix. But its soul was here, between us, trapped somewhere in that glass, from where we weren&#8217;t going to let it escape.</span></p><p><span>***</span></p><p><span>And then, the river took us. And we let ourselves be taken. I remembered what my mother told me once, of how in Al-Andalus, in then-Muslim Spain, when people saw singers taken in by that river of song, they cried &#8220;Wa Ilah! Wa Ilah!&#8221;, believing they were possessed by the Holy Sprit, and did so for so many years so many times that they continue to call to God to this day, though they don&#8217;t realize it: &#8220;Ol&#233;! Ol&#233;!&#8221;</span></p><p><span>But I didn&#8217;t care then if I was possessed by God or by a djinn. I wasn&#8217;t going to let this river of song let go of me.</span></p><p><span>And neither was he. That back and forth, of songs, of ideas, of lyrics, of words, of voices, was all we wanted to do, day and night. Me with my hair up, sans maquillage, in the pajamas I had brought and kept in the studio to change into every morning. Him with his uncombed hair growing more from the sides of his head than it wanted to do anymore from its top, with his beard growing out in every direction, like rays from the sun in old paintings.</span></p><p><span>There were so many times I would push a voice into him, knowing it was imperfect, which he would swallow whole, and come back the next day with it perfected. I knew then that we were making my voice his and his voice mine.</span></p><p><span>We would end so many days with tired, tired voices. And so, we would speak low. And that was the voice of his in which I remembered him telling me everything about himself. Growing up in a suburb not far from the city, he had always seen it as his playground.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;But the-city humbled-had-she-me, returned-had-she-me to-size-my, when finally come-had-I lived-had-I here,&#8221; he said. &#8220;When tried-had-I make-I-her mine to-me. These-the-five years the-first spent-had-I all days-my in-the-studio and all nights-my in-the-clubs and the-bars and the-drinking, trying-and I-trying become-I to-Beirut like-what been-had-he Solomon to-Jerusalam.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>He was quiet for a long moment after, reminiscing over the wildness of memories that, with them, came so much pain.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;There-are cities,&#8221; I finally said. &#8220;where God he-lives for a time.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>&#8220;Like Baghdad days-of the-Abbasids,&#8221; he said.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;Like Damascus days-of the-Ummayuds,&#8221; I completed him.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;Like Jerusalem days-of Solomon.&#8221;</span></p><p><em><span>Could it really be Beirut now? </span></em><span>I wondered that night. And I would wonder it every night I ever spent in Beirut.</span></p><p><span>***</span></p><p><span>Singing late into the night for weeks on end, as the loud city outside tried to drink and dance itself into forgetfulness&#8211;forgetfulness of war, of life, of heartbreak&#8211;I thought, so many times, </span><em><span>this is better than sex</span></em><span>, because if it wasn&#8217;t, it wouldn&#8217;t be all we were doing.</span></p><p><span>But the sex came. The day I learned to give into him. The day our voices, which had been growing towards each other then for a whole month, finally touched. The day I finally heard his voice when I heard his voice. The day I could understand its every plan and intention from a single note.</span></p><p><span>The day I finally learned to let his voice enter me, when I finally felt it possess me and leave its seed. The same day I saw him sing it &#8220;Enta </span><em><span>(&#8220;you&#8221; when said to a man)</span></em><span>&#8221; in a love song. That was the day I knew our souls had touched for the first time.</span></p><p><span>And after our last take was done, for the last song we wanted to record that day, I simply looked at him, across the glass, and he looked at me.</span></p><p><span>I took off my headphones and left the room and ran downstairs to the lobby and asked them to ring my mother&#8217;s number.</span></p><p><span>When I got back to the studio, I entered the control room without a word. He spun his chair to face me, and I walked over, and placed one knee over his left thigh on the other over his right, and lost the fingers of my right hand in his beard and the fingers of my left in his hair, and kissed him and then made love to him, right there on his control room chair, as he moved his feet under it to lock its wheels, one by one, in place.</span></p><p><span>***</span></p><p><span>And I barely saw my own apartment anymore. That night we had gone home to his place. We made love and fell asleep and woke up in the middle of the night, called back to life, by the same God or the same djinn, and sang to each other, sang new songs. Songs about love. But also songs about war. Songs about unity. Songs about togetherness. Songs about a dear Shia friend of mine because I was Sunni. Songs about a dear Sunni friend of his because he was Shia. Songs about all the Christians murdered by Sunnis and Shi&#8217;as, each of whom fought with each other so much that they forgot what it meant to be Muslim. And songs about heartbreak seeing your old, tender, country fall into war and war and war, over and over and over again.</span></p><p><span>It was clear to me then that music is how we both had always chosen to forget. Through every heartbreak, as children or as adults. I remember Edith Piaf singing that first night in his apartment, off the record player in the living room as we made love in the bedroom.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;This-is the street to-the-songs. We no-there meet not loves unhappy. We ourselves-love, we no-ourselves-love not. We ourselves-kiss, we ourselves-from go. We sing, and then voil&#224;.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>The next night we drove up to my apartment, past Alfred and past Mustafa and past Marie sitting on the curb outside, and emptied my closets of all the clothes I bothered wearing anymore and threw one half in the closet in the studio and the rest in the closet in his bedroom.</span></p><p><span>Our lives were on fire, and our country was on fire, and our love was on fire, and the music came, like a river that we couldn&#8217;t let go of, because it couldn&#8217;t let go of us. And with the river still flowing inside us, we would work through the day and into night and sleep in each other&#8217;s arms, often in the studio, or finish a song to perfection as the sun was just about to set, then when every night was the eve of war, when every night was turning into Thursday night and Friday night, and get dressed as the tapes burned a song into a cassette, as I applied my makeup in the reflection of the glass before he rushed me downstairs to the car with my heels in his hands.</span></p><p><span>I drank his cognac in the car, and the world and everything in it would be spinning by the time we reached the front of the line and the bouncer saw us and recognized him and let us in as an entire city block that had been waiting hours to be let in jeered at us, drunk already and drinking more whenever they felt the alcohol loosen its hold.</span></p><p><span>He crossed his arms in mine as we entered the club, and we waded through the dance floor until we were at the DJ booth. Ziad&#8217;s face and his hand raised with a cassette tape within it was all the DJ needed to see before he snatched it from his fingers, before we heard the music we had recorded all morning roar through the speakers, before we saw a city of drunk mourners mourning for their country flood into the dancefloor and press into the crowd pressing against the DJ booth.</span></p><p><span>I remember thinking then, listening to my voice come down upon us as if from heaven, seeing the crowd lose itself in ecstasy upon the very first note, seeing their souls reach for where our souls lay, making love in the music, feeling my tears of ecstasy and my tears of fear and my tears of mourning all flood like rivers down my face.</span></p><p><em><span>I&#8217;m ready to die. Ya Heavenly Father-my up above. I am ready to die. Ya Rabb al-Alamin, Lord of the Worlds. Ya Ar-Rahman Ar-Rahim, the most gracious, the most forgiving. Take me if it is my time. Thank You for giving me at least this in my life. If this life won&#8217;t last much longer, let its last memory be this, this moment of pure ecstasy in the arms of a lover, in the arms of Your chosen city for a time.</span></em></p><p><span>Or is this death already? Had a suicide bomber already entered? Was he already priming the charges, as we all looked away, lost in music, lost in each other? Or had he already planted it this morning, under our feet? Was this moment the last moment of ecstasy we would spend here on Earth, in this Eden-for-an-instant, before He in Jannah upon high, with Yousef and Moussa and Issa and Peace-Be-Upon-Him at his side, was going to turn us back into the dust we came from? Or has it already gone off? Has he already trampled out the vintage where the grapes of wrath are stored? Has he already sounded forth the trumpet that shall never call retreat? Is he already sifting our hearts before his judgement seat?</span></p><p><span>Or will my life continue on afterwards? Will I live to see this country fight itself to nothingness, as its always fought itself to nothingness? Simply for who gets to own it, for who gets to call their God the only God over it.</span></p><p><span>Will I live to see Ziad fall out of love with me? I know he had made songs with so women before, sitting there in the control room with them singing in the live room. Am I only the last in a long line? Will he leave me like any other? Will I only be his for as long as this river flows and then forgotten the second it turns dry?</span></p><p><span>Or will he leave me only after I have given him one son and then a second? Will another woman my age now, half his age then, simply walk into that same recording studio and leave me with half a husband?</span></p><p><span> Will I forever just be thought of as the woman made famous by his songs? The one who all the producers in our label, and the one across the street, think they have the right to bed, just because I had bedded Ziad? The one they will then destroy for rejecting their advances? The one they will leave to rot to obscurity? The one they leave to be thought of forever as the one without the brain to sing for herself, the one who vanished into obscurity the moment her man left her and took his famed genius with him?</span></p><p><span> Or will he be faithful? And will I be faithful? And will we kill our music by choosing to stay with each other, in unhappy love that we remember this moment too fondly to let go?</span></p><p><span>Or will everything be fine? Will this country find its way out of its problems in peace? Will Ziad be my faithful husband and give me one daughter and a second? Will this river of song never stop? Will we spend our old age singing in the garden of the house we bought together in the mountains?</span></p><p><span>And then I heard my mother speak to me. Her voice I had forgotten I had called to ask her all of this, every single question, that night I walked downstairs from the studio room to call her, and ask her for advice, because I knew I loved Ziad and that Ziad loved me.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;No you-worry-you, ya binti,&#8221; I heard her say. &#8220;You lived-had-you life more from-me. What-what it-happens, ya habibti, o beloved-my, please I-beg-you, no you-forget-you: will be-you happy. With-you the music, ya binti. Whether become-had-you the-beloved-of Ziad, there in-the-house-yours in-the-country, surrounded by-the-grandchildren-yours, singing-you with-him until-last-of lifetime-your. Or-whether left-had-you-him, or left-had-he-you and-thus you-remain in-Beirut, and-you-become the singer songs-of the-love who been-had-she famous, you-inspiring the-girls who they-recognize-her in-the-street, even only by living lifetime-your by-self-her in-peace. What-what it-happens, ya habibti: will be-you happy.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;So no you-worry-you, ya binti, please. Let-you just river-of the-desire in-heart-yours she-takes-you. He, the one who placed-had-He-it there. And-no would-have-He no-if not been-had-she necessary you-hear-her.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>&#8220;Thank-you, ya immi, mother-my&#8221; was all I said.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;Surely, ya binti.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>And I hung up and waved thanks to the man at the front desk and walked back up to the studio. And when I walked back into the control room, he turned to see me.</span></p><p><span>He smiled and said &#8220;Hey, Enta!&#8221;</span></p><p><span>And when I was in his arms and he was in mine, with Beirut outside on fire, I simply said back to him, &#8220;Hey, Entee!&#8221;</span></p><div class="subscription-widget-wrap-editor" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://thehyacinthgarden.com/subscribe?&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Subscribe&quot;,&quot;language&quot;:&quot;en&quot;}" data-component-name="SubscribeWidgetToDOM"><div class="subscription-widget show-subscribe"><div class="preamble"><p class="cta-caption">Thanks for reading The Hyacinth Garden! Subscribe for free to receive new posts and support my work.</p></div><form class="subscription-widget-subscribe"><input type="email" class="email-input" name="email" placeholder="Type your email&#8230;" tabindex="-1"><input type="submit" class="button primary" value="Subscribe"><div class="fake-input-wrapper"><div class="fake-input"></div><div class="fake-button"></div></div></form></div></div>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[How To Be A Writer In The Age of A.I]]></title><description><![CDATA[A list of the things I do to show my process when writing.]]></description><link>https://thehyacinthgarden.com/p/how-to-be-a-writer-in-the-age-of</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://thehyacinthgarden.com/p/how-to-be-a-writer-in-the-age-of</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Neeraj]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Sun, 30 Aug 2026 19:07:39 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!qJQ_!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F78d9ae4f-7fb9-4389-89cb-f1c493113490_4724x6126.jpeg" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>It essentially all sums up to: Show your process.</p><p>Here are some of the things that I do to show my process.</p><ol><li><p>I&#8217;ve been slowly moving all my existing projects to, and especially starting all of my new projects on, online platforms that automatically and actively keep version history </p><ul><li><p>The most accessible software for this is probably Google Docs</p></li><li><p><a href="https://support.google.com/docs/thread/158562878/how-often-does-google-doc-version-history-record-changes?hl=en">Docs doesn&#8217;t seem to have a set regularity for recording versions</a>, which is disappointing. But looking through my personal docs, Google  does seem to save a version every few minutes, even when you&#8217;re actively writing. I think this well meets most reasonable thresholds.</p></li></ul></li><li><p>For the works of mine that I prefer to keep on my machine, I make sure to upload the project to Drive, as a new revision, after every substantial working session.</p><ul><li><p>This is mostly the case for me right now with my larger project, because I&#8217;ve moved to using the software Scrivener, which I&#8217;ve found very useful for drafting large manuscripts.</p></li><li><p>I save a version of it every night after I&#8217;m done writing to my Google Drive folder.</p></li><li><p>When you&#8217;re uploading to Drive, make it sure to save it as a new version. Make sure all your previous versions that are still safe and ready to be reviewed if needed.</p></li><li><p>I think having different versions and different drafts on your personal computer is still better than having nothing but a magical final draft that is here with you inexplicably. <strong>But it&#8217;s important that your versions are always being saved and recorded by a third party. </strong></p></li></ul></li><li><p>I save every single one of my notes, physical as well as digital</p><ul><li><p>Signing and dating all your physical notes is always a good practice.</p></li><li><p>I would also consider archiving notes the same way I suggested above for draft revisions. </p><ul><li><p>For clarity, I currently don&#8217;t do that, since it might be a lot of work for random Notes App scribbles.</p></li><li><p>I think a good system would possible be iCloud backups that get taken for Notes in particular at a more regular frequency than for other apps. I&#8217;m not sure how feasible this is natively with Apple.</p></li></ul></li></ul></li><li><p>I save all of my correspondences about my projects</p><ul><li><p>This includes emails where I sent earlier versions of the draft to others.</p></li><li><p>This includes text messages where I&#8217;m telling a friend about an idea for a project I have.</p></li></ul></li><li><p>Make your A.I policy clear on a public-facing profile if you have one so that there&#8217;s never any ambiguity.</p><ul><li><p>I publish mine below.</p></li></ul></li><li><p>If you do use A.I as a research tool, you need to be open to publishing all your chats</p></li></ol><h3>Tech People, Please Give Us Your Suggestions</h3><p>Whenever a tech person hears &#8220;Version History,&#8221; they probably don&#8217;t think about Google Docs. They probably think about a software named Git.</p><p>Git is the main tool that coders use to keep track of their version history, especially when collaborating in large teams.</p><p>I&#8217;ve tried to make my process work with Git before, but it&#8217;s difficult because many of these files (like .docx) are saved in binary and/or contain a lot of meta data. </p><p>Below is my suggestion for software that could help writers through this moment in time. If you know a software that already accomplishes much of what&#8217;s outlined below, please tell me.</p><p>A Writer&#8217;s Versioning Software needs, at minimum, to be able to do the following:</p><ul><li><p>Upon a user&#8217;s &#8220;commit,&#8221; which we tech people should think of as a &#8220;commit-and-push".</p><ul><li><p>Take the user&#8217;s dot docx, dot scriv, or dot whatever file,</p></li><li><p>Convert it to a text-only form if needed, </p></li><li><p>Strip it of its meta data, </p></li><li><p>Commit the changes made to the text,</p></li><li><p>Include the meta data in a separate versioned file, </p></li><li><p>Commit the meta-data to a parallel branch for auditing purposes,</p></li><li><p>Push the branch changes to a remote repository in an audit-level storage solution. </p><ul><li><p>I know that AWS Glacier has a few storage options available that are explicitly greenlit for legal and auditing purposes.</p></li></ul></li></ul></li></ul><p>If this has been a useful outline for a product you&#8217;d now like to engineer, please run wild with this. Just give me credit for the idea/outline. I care most that it gets built. </p><p>I have a technical background as a data engineer and could feasibly work on something like this, but I think it&#8217;ll take the time and effort of someone more dedicated to tech projects than me. Especially since this is going to be something with very large security demands, this isn&#8217;t something I&#8217;d slop-code. </p><p>Every possible security vulnerability is going to require a lot of human attention. We cannot have sloppy software that ruins people&#8217;s writing versioning history. It could be what gets or doesn&#8217;t get them published. It could be what gets them branded as a slop-writer or an artist. </p><p>Unless we&#8217;re able to provide availability and security guarantees on par with the big tech companies (on whom we might anyway depend on for a lot of the back end anyway), this isn&#8217;t worth doing in the slightest. </p><h3>Where I Think We&#8217;re Headed As Writers and Publishers</h3><p>I think we&#8217;re moving to an audit-based system for writers. Or at least, I think, it&#8217;s the system that would make the most sense currently. </p><p>I think literary agents and publishing houses need to be kind to writers about this, but I do believe they need to slowly start making it an expectation that, when you submit a work to them, you need to agree to potentially being audited if there are valid suspicions.</p><p>I think a worse version of this, which would be easier for agents/publishers but crueler to writers, is an expectation that writers need to collate and present substantial proof of work before submitting. Collating that would be its own week of labor, so thanks, A.I.</p><h3>My A.I Policy</h3><p>I have never and will never use A.I as anything more than a research tool for all my creative writing projects. </p><p>I will never use A.I to make a creative decision for me. In the context of writing, I consider any visible mark on the manuscript (including the words, down to the punctuation marks, and anything in between) to be a creative decision. </p><p>I also have never and will never use A.I for any creative process. This includes generating ideas, outlining, or brain-storming.</p><p></p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!qJQ_!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F78d9ae4f-7fb9-4389-89cb-f1c493113490_4724x6126.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!qJQ_!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F78d9ae4f-7fb9-4389-89cb-f1c493113490_4724x6126.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!qJQ_!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F78d9ae4f-7fb9-4389-89cb-f1c493113490_4724x6126.jpeg 848w, 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class="image-link-expand"><div class="pencraft pc-display-flex pc-gap-8 pc-reset"><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container restack-image"><svg aria-hidden="true" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 20 20" fill="none" stroke-width="1.5" stroke="var(--color-fg-primary)" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg"><g><path d="M2.53001 7.81595C3.49179 4.73911 6.43281 2.5 9.91173 2.5C13.1684 2.5 15.9537 4.46214 17.0852 7.23684L17.6179 8.67647M17.6179 8.67647L18.5002 4.26471M17.6179 8.67647L13.6473 6.91176M17.4995 12.1841C16.5378 15.2609 13.5967 17.5 10.1178 17.5C6.86118 17.5 4.07589 15.5379 2.94432 12.7632L2.41165 11.3235M2.41165 11.3235L1.5293 15.7353M2.41165 11.3235L6.38224 13.0882"></path></g></svg></button><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container view-image"><svg xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" class="lucide lucide-maximize2 lucide-maximize-2"><polyline points="15 3 21 3 21 9"></polyline><polyline points="9 21 3 21 3 15"></polyline><line x1="21" x2="14" y1="3" y2="10"></line><line x1="3" x2="10" y1="21" y2="14"></line></svg></button></div></div></div></a><figcaption class="image-caption">The Alchemist Discovering Phosphorus, by Joseph Wright of Derby, 1795</figcaption></figure></div><p class="button-wrapper" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://thehyacinthgarden.com/subscribe?&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Subscribe now&quot;,&quot;action&quot;:null,&quot;class&quot;:null}" data-component-name="ButtonCreateButton"><a class="button primary" href="https://thehyacinthgarden.com/subscribe?"><span>Subscribe now</span></a></p><p></p>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[How A Polish Immigrant Who Learned English in His 20s Became One of the U.K’s Most Celebrated Writers]]></title><description><![CDATA[In this post I go over the life and influence of Polish-British author Joseph Conrad, paying particular attention to how his prepositional choices give away the way that he was a not a native English language speaker but how that uniqueness in his style serves to edify his writing, evidenced by the fact that it has been copied by numerous native English language speakers ever since.]]></description><link>https://thehyacinthgarden.com/p/how-a-polish-immigrant-who-learned</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://thehyacinthgarden.com/p/how-a-polish-immigrant-who-learned</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Neeraj]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Thu, 27 Aug 2026 13:43:27 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://api.substack.com/feed/podcast/212998692/07a44097527810735e7ac3bf82840ba4.mp3" length="0" type="audio/mpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>In this post I go over the life and influence of Polish-British author Joseph Conrad, paying particular attention to how his prepositional choices give away the way that he was a not a native English language speaker but how that uniqueness in his style serves to edify his writing, evidenced by the fact that it has been copied by numerous native English language speakers ever since.</p>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[Most English Translations Obscure Just How Romantic the Bible Really Is]]></title><description><![CDATA[In this video, I talk about the benefits of my approach of "hyper-literal" translations, which attempt to keep intact much of the word order and the original grammar of the original source language while still presenting something interpretable to English-language speakers.]]></description><link>https://thehyacinthgarden.com/p/most-english-translations-obscure</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://thehyacinthgarden.com/p/most-english-translations-obscure</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Neeraj]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Thu, 27 Aug 2026 13:40:09 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://api.substack.com/feed/podcast/212998121/34b2d53671338694348727799ab172c6.mp3" length="0" type="audio/mpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<p><span>In this video, I talk about the benefits of my approach of "hyper-literal" translations, which attempt to keep intact much of the word order and the original grammar of the original source language while still presenting something interpretable to English-language speakers.</span><br><br><span>I pay particular attention here to way different translations chose to translate Chapter 3 Line 6 of Kohelet. In it, I find that many of the translations translate the words in a way to obscure the romantic implications that are more clear in the original. I end the video with a call to peace among all peoples.</span><br><br><span>Ecclesiastes (or Koholet) tells the story of King Solomon as he enters old age and reflects on all the endeavors of his life, slowly coming to terms with the meaningless of all things. There are no easy religious answers it tries to present. It&#8217;s a true work of art in how its greatest offerings to us are questions, not answers.</span><br><br><span>Although this is not a spritual exercise for me, I come with a deep reverence for the source text as a beautiful piece of historic world poetry.</span><br><br><span>I&#8217;ve remarked to my friends on a few occasions that I sometimes think of my life before Ecclesiastes and my life after Ecclesiastes. There are whole categories all of my past behaviour that I remember from time to time and then think to myself, &#8220;It&#8217;s alright. That was before I read Ecclesiastes.&#8221;</span><br><br><span>I think the only other book I can saw that about with as much confidence is Tirukurral.</span></p><p class="button-wrapper" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://thehyacinthgarden.com/subscribe?&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Subscribe now&quot;,&quot;action&quot;:null,&quot;class&quot;:null}" data-component-name="ButtonCreateButton"><a class="button primary" href="https://thehyacinthgarden.com/subscribe?"><span>Subscribe now</span></a></p><p>If you enjoy this kind of content, please consider subscribing! You can find the full translations along with all their notes on my page. </p>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[Poem: The box of lighters in my kitchen. / And the memories I find within.]]></title><description><![CDATA[Here's the lighter given to me by my neighbor Jack, Which I borrowed once but never gave back One night the winter before last, When I had come downstairs to take out the trash, And found him out there, as his wont often is, smoking a cig, And joining, listened to his troubles, all those small and big, And, quoting the Gita, urged him to find the strength to bear through his strife, And continue on&#8212;with his work, with his marriage, with his life.]]></description><link>https://thehyacinthgarden.com/p/poem-the-box-of-lighters-in-my-kitchen</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://thehyacinthgarden.com/p/poem-the-box-of-lighters-in-my-kitchen</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Neeraj]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Mon, 24 Aug 2026 19:46:43 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!IpOC!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fa17f12e3-f690-4e27-b7ae-dc9aa4dfd3a8_1080x1350.png" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!IpOC!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fa17f12e3-f690-4e27-b7ae-dc9aa4dfd3a8_1080x1350.png" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!IpOC!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fa17f12e3-f690-4e27-b7ae-dc9aa4dfd3a8_1080x1350.png 424w, 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stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" class="lucide lucide-maximize2 lucide-maximize-2"><polyline points="15 3 21 3 21 9"></polyline><polyline points="9 21 3 21 3 15"></polyline><line x1="21" x2="14" y1="3" y2="10"></line><line x1="3" x2="10" y1="21" y2="14"></line></svg></button></div></div></div></a></figure></div><div class="preformatted-block" data-component-name="PreformattedTextBlockToDOM"><label class="hide-text" contenteditable="false">Text within this block will maintain its original spacing when published</label><pre class="text">   Here's the lighter given to me by my neighbor Jack,
   Which I borrowed once but never gave back
   One night the winter before last,
   When I had come downstairs to take out the trash,
   And found him out there, as his wont often is, smoking a cig, 
   And joining, listened to his troubles, all those small and big,  
   And, quoting the Gita, urged him to find the strength to bear through his strife, 
   And continue on&#8212;with his work, with his marriage, with his life. 

   And here's the lighter Albo gave me on Jeremy's roof last year,
   Which I used to relight a spliff, as we shook free our election night fears,
   That lighter whose picture of Britney Spears on its side made me laugh,
   That night we spent celebrating on our then-mayor-elect's behalf,
   That lighter I never gave back to him,
   Though I keep promising I will.

   And here's that lighter that Hope and I,
   Meeting again, as the rain poured outside,
   Used to light our joints with,
   As we talked about Jung, religion, the mystics,
   And the forever-warming climate.
   Perhaps she wanted me to remember her by it.
   Because she refused when I offered it back,
   Saying that, of spare lighters, she never lacks. 
   And remember her I do, for certain,
   But with more pain than she probably intended then.

   And too oft, in an old shirt's breast pocket, I find another, 
   A lighter given to me by family, a friend, or a lover. 
   And I thank the Lord up above for all I've had luck in this life to meet,
   Who once perhaps gave me a shoulder upon which to lean,
   Or who once perhaps, against my own unkind thoughts, helped me defend,
   Or, which is greater, gave me the dignity in offering my shoulder to them.</pre></div>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[Poem: This little dust that I am ]]></title><description><![CDATA[So oft I feel I am only ever truly happy In your, my dear Lord's, loving company. That the only other soul that mine can manage to touch without pain Is your heavenly sprit, pervading the universe, which over all things lays. But I know there will come a time when I shall know naught But union in your embrace, which is all this whole fleeting life through I've sought. I know that now is the time that this little dust that I am gets to hold onto life And that I ought spend it in awe of all its blessings, even through all its strife But I only ever wish to stay here, praying to you, And I begin to wonder if all my prayers are actually sin, If what I truly ask for is for that second life to come soon, Along with all the peace that it may bring.]]></description><link>https://thehyacinthgarden.com/p/poem-this-little-dust-that-i-am</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://thehyacinthgarden.com/p/poem-this-little-dust-that-i-am</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Neeraj]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Mon, 24 Aug 2026 19:35:36 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Ov6d!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F37beb669-ba55-4f48-a42d-1a37ecd76ca0_1080x1350.png" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a 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stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" class="lucide lucide-maximize2 lucide-maximize-2"><polyline points="15 3 21 3 21 9"></polyline><polyline points="9 21 3 21 3 15"></polyline><line x1="21" x2="14" y1="3" y2="10"></line><line x1="3" x2="10" y1="21" y2="14"></line></svg></button></div></div></div></a></figure></div><div class="preformatted-block" data-component-name="PreformattedTextBlockToDOM"><label class="hide-text" contenteditable="false">Text within this block will maintain its original spacing when published</label><pre class="text">   So oft I feel I am only ever truly happy
   In your, my dear Lord's, loving company.

   That the only other soul that mine can manage to touch without pain
   Is your heavenly sprit, pervading the universe, which over all things lays.

   But I know there will come a time when I shall know naught
   But union in your embrace, which is all this whole fleeting life through I've sought.

   I know that now is the time that this little dust that I am gets to hold onto life
   And that I ought spend it in awe of all its blessings, even through all its strife

   But I only ever wish to stay here, praying to you, 
   And I begin to wonder if all my prayers are actually sin,
   If what I truly ask for is for that second life to come soon, 
   Along with all the peace that it may bring.</pre></div>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[Poem: A crowd in Union Square and the time it holds still]]></title><description><![CDATA[Time moves slower in New York City, Amid the rushing crowd, in those moments you can see The faces of a hundred people in a single breath. Here, amid so much life, here you feel so far from death. Here among a thousand souls all like yours, caught up in life's restless gale, Here where, if you attention pay, each may stop to tell you a tale: A tale of victory or a tale of strife, A story about this moment in their life, Told by the expression on their face, Or the pace of their walk, but each a tale full of grace. So I walk not too slow, reminded that each life holds a universe within, Reminded that to ignore beauty presented before you is a sin, Reminded of how thankful I am to witness before me a city like this unfurled, This city in a rush to become the world, Reminded how beautiful it is just to roam Through a city that promises all mankind a home.]]></description><link>https://thehyacinthgarden.com/p/poem-a-crowd-in-union-square-and</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://thehyacinthgarden.com/p/poem-a-crowd-in-union-square-and</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Neeraj]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Mon, 24 Aug 2026 19:28:21 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!z0YN!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F3971de4c-717f-4d49-9271-4fa147f3bd3f_1080x1350.png" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div class="preformatted-block" data-component-name="PreformattedTextBlockToDOM"><label class="hide-text" contenteditable="false">Text within this block will maintain its original spacing when published</label><pre class="text">Time moves slower in New York City,
Amid the rushing crowd, in those moments you can see

The faces of a hundred people in a single breath.
Here, amid so much life, here you feel so far from death.

Here among a thousand souls all like yours, caught up in life's 
   restless gale,
Here where, if you attention pay, each may stop to tell you a 
   tale:

A tale of victory or a tale of strife,
A story about this moment in their life,

Told by the expression on their face,
Or the pace of their walk, but each a tale full of grace.

So I walk not too slow, reminded that each life holds a universe 
   within,
Reminded that to ignore beauty presented before you is a sin,

Reminded of how thankful I am to witness before me a city 
   like this unfurled,
This city in a rush to become the world,

Reminded how beautiful it is just to roam
Through a city that promises all mankind a home.</pre></div><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!z0YN!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F3971de4c-717f-4d49-9271-4fa147f3bd3f_1080x1350.png" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!z0YN!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F3971de4c-717f-4d49-9271-4fa147f3bd3f_1080x1350.png 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!z0YN!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F3971de4c-717f-4d49-9271-4fa147f3bd3f_1080x1350.png 848w, 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It's here where you give into your desires for a season, chasing it down every promise-laced alley; It's here where you learn how right Ibn 'Arabi was to say that desire is like water from the sea, That the more you drink of it, the more you thirst.]]></description><link>https://thehyacinthgarden.com/p/poem-here-where-a-child-in-morningside</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://thehyacinthgarden.com/p/poem-here-where-a-child-in-morningside</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Neeraj]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Mon, 24 Aug 2026 19:26:44 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!YsyB!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F34e0730a-66fa-4e74-8f8d-f190274b8aee_1080x1350.png" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div class="preformatted-block" data-component-name="PreformattedTextBlockToDOM"><label class="hide-text" contenteditable="false">Text within this block will maintain its original spacing when published</label><pre class="text">Here in New York, you learn how best to be alone, 
Here where you can leave behind your phone, here where you won't need an uber to drive you home,  
Here, among the packed express-uptown and local-downtown rushing subway cars,
Here, you can simply disappear into the city's iron veins, and let it take you to where you can forget all that forgetting needs, no matter how far.

It's here where you give into your desires for a season, chasing it down every promise-laced alley;
It's here where you learn how right Ibn 'Arabi was to say that desire is like water from the sea,
That the more you drink of it, the more you thirst. And so, it's here where you learn to let it go,
Here where you spend the season that follows desire learning how to simply be in the world alone.

It's here you learn that you&#8217;re as capable of breaking hearts as you are of having yours broken,
Here where you reflect continually on the meaninglessness of all of love's momentary tokens,
Here where you try to understand how someone could hold her face an inch from yours for all the minutes of this hour and the hour that comes anon,
And still leave you only with everyone, from the bodega guy to your oldest confidants, asking you where your signora has gone.  

It's here where you find a park in a neighborhood far from home,
Somewhere you and your forlorn love's ghosts-and-memories never roamed,
And find a space within it, under a tree's rustling shade, to melt into the world.
Here, you close your eyes and simply let your thoughts swirl; here you sit, waiting for all your questions' answers to slowly unfurl.

Here where you melt into misery for a moment, as a Strokes song rings an old unfulfilled wish through your mind,
"Can I waste all your time on the sidewalk? Can I stand in your light for just a while?"
   
But it's also here where a child in Morningside Park, as evening nears, calls you out of your despair
And asks if you, from your greater height, could throw their kite in the air.

And it's here where you suggest instead that they sit on your shoulder and throw it themselves, 
And so, take them, high and light o'er your epaules, as you yourself stand on a park bench,

And watch them throw their kite against the rushing wind as, by and by, it comes by,
And turn, turning them on your shoulders as you do, to watch that kite fly against the bright, evening-painted sky.

It's here you wave goodbye, and take the train home, 
Reminded of just how much you want children of your own. 

It's here where you learn that the mystics, when speaking of desire, were only ever wrong  
When they said that it serves no purpose at all.

Here, amid so much life, in this city dedicated solely to its celebration,
Here, you can&#8217;t help but find your way back to the roads that promise its creation.

Here, you relearn to love the tantrums and caprices of your heart; 
Here, you learn to point it, as it waits for love, to more deserving things: like its art.

Here, you learn to slowly give yourself again the space,
To come back to what makes this life worth living in the first place.</pre></div><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!YsyB!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F34e0730a-66fa-4e74-8f8d-f190274b8aee_1080x1350.png" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!YsyB!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F34e0730a-66fa-4e74-8f8d-f190274b8aee_1080x1350.png 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!YsyB!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F34e0730a-66fa-4e74-8f8d-f190274b8aee_1080x1350.png 848w, 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url="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!y1Wk!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fc869deed-481f-4b40-8137-db91707f363f_1080x1350.png" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div class="preformatted-block" data-component-name="PreformattedTextBlockToDOM"><label class="hide-text" contenteditable="false">Text within this block will maintain its original spacing when published</label><pre class="text">   O New York, this night let me hear you sing, and just to pass the time, 
   Please tell, which center of the world were you in another life? 

   Were you Rome? Where Galicians, Iberians, Saxons roamed, and hated each other at first, but knew in time 
   That the name of Rome was greater than all those of their smaller tribes, 
   And so, came together, and in doing so, gave up all their petty hubris and pride? 

   Were you New Istanbul, old Constanipole? Where Turks and Arabs and Europeans each came and left their mark?
   Remaking that same sepulcher of divine wisdom into a barracks, then a church, and then a mosque?

   Or were you Cochin, on India's Malabar Coast? Where to this day, upon a single street, 
   You can find the temples and homes of thousands of old refugees?
   Syriac, Catholic, Methodist Christians, Hindus, Jews, and Parsis?

   Were you Alexandria? Where Greeks, Judeans, and Egyptians came and each other's songs all sung?
   And translated all of each other's greatest works into Koine, the common tongue?
   Whose core, undoubted, from Macedonia came, but who, by loanwords from Hebrew, Aramaic, and Egyptian-soon-to-be-Coptic, was kept young?

   Were you Nishapur, where Chinese and Indian merchants stopped, and sold their wares, along that road paved with silk? 
   So many that girls in Iran a thousand years later, to be named "Beautiful," are still named Hind?
   Because all they knew of the people that lived east of the River Sindh was that they possessed beautiful things?
 
   O' Old New Amsterdam, New New York, will all this someday end? Can you say? 
   Will the barbarians at our gate truly succeed at the end of the day?
   And convince us that unity among men can only exist if we are all the same?

   O, New York, even if so, I know you will be born again, in another generation or in another land,
   That humanity shall not rest until it finds complete unity in man.</pre></div><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!y1Wk!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fc869deed-481f-4b40-8137-db91707f363f_1080x1350.png" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!y1Wk!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fc869deed-481f-4b40-8137-db91707f363f_1080x1350.png 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!y1Wk!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fc869deed-481f-4b40-8137-db91707f363f_1080x1350.png 848w, 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That my best friend in the city, the first to show me down every subway stop and street Would be gone only a minute, that his egoless patience for me and my impulsivity Would come back to make me a home again, out of this city of dreams. And return you did, but only after you refused to say That is was in Shanghai that you decided to stay. Outside that Chinatown Karaoke bar, I spoke to your sister over a joint, And told her that when I called, two continents and 12 hours away, in your day and my night, That my anger at the fact that you would you leave and not tell me, I let show, Asking you how you could ever forget to say when my best friend in city, if ever, was coming home. But I learned that night, that perhaps it was love that kept you in Shanghai, That her Anglicized name is Kiki, that you met her online. And listening to you sing karoake until dawn, "Oh, simple thing, where have you gone? "I'm getting old and I need something to rely on" All my forgiveness flooded into my heart anew. O Henry, I know how loveless this city of dreams had left you. It has so oft left me the same.]]></description><link>https://thehyacinthgarden.com/p/poem-a-letter-to-henry</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://thehyacinthgarden.com/p/poem-a-letter-to-henry</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Neeraj]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Mon, 24 Aug 2026 19:18:02 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!JDWO!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fa2113aea-248d-4f27-b0aa-b34531b80afb_1080x1350.png" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<p></p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!JDWO!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fa2113aea-248d-4f27-b0aa-b34531b80afb_1080x1350.png" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" 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stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" class="lucide lucide-maximize2 lucide-maximize-2"><polyline points="15 3 21 3 21 9"></polyline><polyline points="9 21 3 21 3 15"></polyline><line x1="21" x2="14" y1="3" y2="10"></line><line x1="3" x2="10" y1="21" y2="14"></line></svg></button></div></div></div></a></figure></div><div class="preformatted-block" data-component-name="PreformattedTextBlockToDOM"><label class="hide-text" contenteditable="false">Text within this block will maintain its original spacing when published</label><pre class="text">   When you first went to Shanghai, 
   I thought it was for only a time.

   That my best friend in the city, the first to show me down every subway stop and street
   Would be gone only a minute, that his egoless patience for me and my impulsivity
   Would come back to make me a home again, out of this city of dreams.
 
   And return you did, but only after you refused to say 
   That is was in Shanghai that you decided to stay.

   Outside that Chinatown Karaoke bar, I spoke to your sister over a joint,
   And told her that when I called, two continents and 12 hours away, in your day and my night, 

   That my anger at the fact that you would you leave and not tell me, I let show,
   Asking you how you could ever forget to say when my best friend in city, if ever, was coming home.

   But I learned that night, that perhaps it was love that kept you in Shanghai,
   That her Anglicized name is Kiki, that you met her online.

   And listening to you sing karoake until dawn,
&#9;   "Oh, simple thing, where have you gone?
&#9;   "I'm getting old and I need something to rely on"

   All my forgiveness flooded into my heart anew.
   O Henry, I know how loveless this city of dreams had left you.
   It has so oft left me the same. So know that, against you, I will never long let my anger brew.

   So please, always do tell me whenever you return, whenever o'er these city streets we again can roam,
   Whenever you're here to make this city of dreams feel the way it felt, back when I still needed a friend to make it home.</pre></div>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[Tamally Maak: An Intro to Hyper-Literal Verse ]]></title><description><![CDATA[My rendition of classic heartfelt Egyptian love anthem by Amr Diab in an experimental verse form of my own creation.]]></description><link>https://thehyacinthgarden.com/p/tamally-maak-an-intro-to-hyper-literal</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://thehyacinthgarden.com/p/tamally-maak-an-intro-to-hyper-literal</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Neeraj]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Fri, 14 Aug 2026 00:24:44 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!nRwG!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fdf04bdd9-6ffc-4509-924c-cfc6404a3bab_1200x1200.jpeg" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>This is the first piece I&#8217;m going to publish online of what I&#8217;m going to call my &#8220;hyper-literals.&#8221; </p><p>This is a translation form / verse type that I first made to translate into English phrases or expressions phrases from Tamil (one of the languages I grew up speaking) that I found beautiful, but whose beauty I couldn&#8217;t always find a way to fully represent in standard translation. </p><p>The verse form essentially attempts a morpheme-by-morpheme translation from a source language into something English-intelligible, using exclusively English vocabulary. </p><p>Growing up in Kuwait, with a substantial Egyptian diaspora, I heard Tamally Maak played on street constantly, throughout my childhood. I always considered it a deeply touching song and a beautiful tune, one that is explicitly modern while still preserving the true, tender, lovingly aflame heart of Arabic poetry that I admire in the great poet-sage&#8217;s of Islamic antiquity (I think of Ibn &#8216;Arabi in particular).</p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!nRwG!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fdf04bdd9-6ffc-4509-924c-cfc6404a3bab_1200x1200.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!nRwG!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fdf04bdd9-6ffc-4509-924c-cfc6404a3bab_1200x1200.jpeg 424w, 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stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" class="lucide lucide-maximize2 lucide-maximize-2"><polyline points="15 3 21 3 21 9"></polyline><polyline points="9 21 3 21 3 15"></polyline><line x1="21" x2="14" y1="3" y2="10"></line><line x1="3" x2="10" y1="21" y2="14"></line></svg></button></div></div></div></a></figure></div><h2>Translation </h2><div class="preformatted-block" data-component-name="PreformattedTextBlockToDOM"><label class="hide-text" contenteditable="false">Text within this block will maintain its original spacing when published</label><pre class="text">1. Always (I am) with-you if even (you are) far from-me, in heart-my love-yours (is) <sup>1</sup>

2. Always with-you, always in mind-my and in heart-my, and-no ever-always-I-forget-you<sup>2</sup>

3. Always (I feel you) absent-me, if-no even ever-always-I-be-with-you

4. (CHORUS) Always beloved-my, ever-always-pine-I-for-you; always eyes-my call-for-you, even if surroundings-my all the-world (is), O beloved-my (I) need-for-you

5. Always with-you, with-you heart-my (is), with-you soul-my (is), O more-beloved (than all)<sup>5</sup>, O more-beloved (than all)

6. And however you-be far from-me, to-heart-my (you are) close

7. O lifetime-my <sup>3</sup>, the-coming and the-existing<sup>4</sup>, O more-beautiful (than all) fate

8. (CHORUS) Always beloved-my, ever-always-pine-I-for-you; always eyes-my call-for-you, even if surroundings-my all the-world (is), O beloved-my (I) need-for-you
</pre></div><h2>Notes</h2><p><sup>1 </sup>Starting out, to ease the reader into the form, I&#8217;ve chosen to include parenthetical copulas. A copula is a linking verb, one can associates two elements together. The copula in English is most often the verb &#8220;to be.&#8221; In English, (French, Spanish etc) we would say &#8220;Yeshaya is cool / Yeshaya est cool / Yeshaya es cool&#8221;. Arabic (and Tamil etc), an explicit copula can be added for clarity but is most often left out in regular speech. Something like &#8220;Yitzchak cool&#8221;</p><p><sup>2</sup> Here I made the choice to translate Masri&#8217;s non-present habitual marker (b&#8217;-) as &#8220;always-ever&#8221;. While &#8216;always-&#8217; would act as a good habitual marker for a strict future tense, and &#8216;ever-&#8217; would act as a good habitual marker for a strict present tense, I chose to concatenate the two to preserve the ambiguity of the non-present tense. </p><p>A standard translation here would have required me to collapse the ambiguity of the non-present tense into either the present or the future tense. Even though in most situations context allows for a clear choice to be made when translating into English, this line is a good example in which preserving the ambiguity allows for a deeper poetic reading. Is he stating that he is currently choosing never to forget his beloved, or is he choosing to never forget her in the future? Perhaps both? Perhaps something in the middle? Isn&#8217;t it lovely that, since the source text doesn&#8217;t make a choice, the translation doesn&#8217;t have to either?   </p><p><sup>3 </sup>The word in the original Egyptian is &#8220;omr,&#8221; which actually more literally translates to &#8220;age.&#8221; For example, if you ask someone how much their omr is, that would be you asking how old they are. </p><p>So where most translations would translate it as &#8220;my life&#8221; I write &#8220;lifetime-my&#8221; in order to preserve that temporal aspect and also to reflect the fact that the morpheme that indicates possession is added to the word as a suffix in Masri and most dialects of Arabic (that I know of&#8230; <em>gulp</em>)</p><p>On a poetic note, I like how it opens the translation to a reading that hold the idea of the time of one&#8217;s life is what&#8217;s valuable, not some more abstract idea that one still happens to be alive. &#8220;My life&#8221; isn&#8217;t worth (to me lol) as much if I&#8217;m going to die the next second (so hopefully I don&#8217;t &lt;3). </p><p><sup>4 </sup>Here is where so many translation would just translate it as &#8220; the future and the present&#8221; or, which would be worse, by enforcing English&#8217;s preferred ordering &#8220;The present and the future&#8221;. </p><p>The reason I chose to write it as &#8220;the-coming and the-existing&#8221; is because in Masri, the words are both active noun participles, essentially something like English&#8217;s gerund construction &#8220;-ing&#8221;. Translating it this way allows the idea of the present and the future to feel more active, as things that are actively occurring, either actively arriving from the once-future or choosing to actively exist in the present. As someone who loves stuffing his prose with active verbs to give phrases a feeling of continuing action, this is something I just had to do.</p><p>It also reminds me of French, in which the most standard word for &#8220;future&#8221; is &#8220;avenir), a collapsed form of  &#8220;&#224; venir&#8221;, literally &#8220;to come&#8221;. Spanish speakers will also be able to recognize something similar in &#8220;porvenir&#8221; but the meaning is more distant, and it&#8217;s not the standard word for &#8220;future.&#8221;</p><p><sup>5 </sup>In Masri, the superlative (e.g &#8216;best&#8217;) is constructed by simply placing the comparative (e.g &#8216;better&#8217;) without a comparison marker (&#8216;than&#8217;). People may be familiar with very similar constructions in French and Spanish where to call someone the most beautiful, construction is &#8220;La plus belle / La m&#225;s bellisima&#8221; literally &#8220;The more beautiful&#8221;</p><h3>The Standard Translation</h3><p>Below is the standard translation and the transliteration from Masri. I am far too rusty with my Arabic script to make sure that I don&#8217;t mess it up when porting it over here. But I know you guys prefer it like this anyway.</p><p> Here are the sources for the <a href="https://yallaarabic.blogspot.com/2011/06/tamally-maak-by-amr-diab-lyrics-and.html">English translation</a> and the <a href="http://www.shira.net/music/lyrics/tamally-maak.htm">transliteration</a>. Thank you to Mostafa from Friday, June 3, 2011 and Dr. Tahseen Alkoudsi respectively! </p><div class="preformatted-block" data-component-name="PreformattedTextBlockToDOM"><label class="hide-text" contenteditable="false">Text within this block will maintain its original spacing when published</label><pre class="text">1. Always with me; even when you are away from me, your love is in my heart.

2. Always with me; always on my mind and in my heart; I never forget you.

3. Always missing you, even when you are with me.

4. I always long for you, my love; my eyes always call for you; even if the whole world surrounds me, I still need you, my love.

5. Always with me; you have my heart and my life; my dearest love.

6. No matter how far away you are, you are close to my heart.

7. O' My life, my future and my present; my most beautiful destiny.

8. I always long for you, my love; my eyes always call for you; even if the whole world surrounds me, I still need you, my love.</pre></div><h3>The Original Masri</h3><div class="preformatted-block" data-component-name="PreformattedTextBlockToDOM"><label class="hide-text" contenteditable="false">Text within this block will maintain its original spacing when published</label><pre class="text">1. Tamalli maa&#8217;aak walaou hatta baa&#8217;eid a&#8217;aani fi aalbi hawaak

2. Tamalli maa&#8217;aak tamalli if- baali iw-if aalbi wala bansaak

3. Tamalli wahishni laou hatta bakoun way-yaak

4. Tamalli habeebi mihtajlak; Tamalli a&#8217;aiynayya tistahlak, Walaou hawalayya killi ilkoun bardhouh yahabeebi mihtajlak

5. Tamalli maa&#8217;aak, maa&#8217;aak aalbi, maa&#8217;aak rouhi, ya aghla habeeb, ya aghla habeeb

6. Iw mahma itkoun baa&#8217;eid a&#8217;anni, li-aalbi areib

7. Ya omri elgaay wilhaadher, ya ahla naseeb

8. Tamalli habeebi mihtajlak; Tamalli a&#8217;aiynayya tistahlak, Walaou hawalayya killi ilkoun bardhouh yahabeebi mihtajlak</pre></div><h3>Note to Literary Agents</h3><p>I end all of the content I make about my hyper-literal verse form with a call to any literary agents watching/reading. </p><p>I have a manuscript nearing completion in which alternating  passages are written in a similar experimental verse form, combining English vocabulary with Tamil syntax and morphology. I myself grew up speaking Tamil and English at home.</p><p>Its first chapter has already been published in The Black Warrior Review&#8217;s 2026 Summer Edition (and they didn&#8217;t even know about its linguistic origins until after they accepted the submission; I suppose they just felt it naturally poetic).</p><p>In my view, Tamil makes for much better reading in this kind of morpheme-by-morpheme translation, because of its agglutinative nature. Performing it in person in the underground poetry scene in New York always edifies my belief that most English-language speakers are able to follow along effectively, with effort but without great issue. </p><p>Below is a brief synopsis of the novel.</p><blockquote><p><em>America Is The World</em>  tells the story of Narasimha, a young man as he first comes of age in rural Tamil Nadu. There, his frustrations grow with the prejudices and suffocating social norms, particularly around love and relationships, of his homeland. There he dreams idly of one day living in America, a land he has only seen on television and in movies, a land he dreams is free of prejudice and hatred&#8212;a land where he believes love blooms free. </p><p>When his life in Tamil Nadu begins to fall apart, he accepts a coyote smuggler&#8217;s offer to bring him to the United States, where he is promised work as a meat packer. He accepts the offer, but he soon discovers that his new home is far from what he imagined. Made to work 12-hour shifts for months on end with only a few hours of sleep each night, the physical toll as well as the emotional disassociation required to slaughter animals on an industrial scale soon begin to pull apart his consciousness, as he begins to self-medicate with hard drugs.</p><p>Through his journey, he comes to find the beauty and the horror in the American dream. Although it tells a painful story of immigration and disillusion, the work never lets go hidden its love for this land and its people. </p><p>The novel is far from auto-biographical, but it mirrors my own story with America. I have come to love America more than most Americans can understand, as someone who&#8217;s had to fight for every squared inch of his place within it.</p></blockquote><h3>Ending Note</h3><p>I have learned humility in my life, so I&#8217;ll place this here and never repeat the thought again unless asked, but if people choose to take this verse form to places I haven&#8217;t yet dreamed of and wish to give me naming rights, I&#8217;d ask that the specific name for this kind of verse to be called &#8220;Senthil-Kumarian Hyper-Literal Verse/Translation.&#8221;</p><p>Tamil last names are patronymic, so that&#8217;s actually my father&#8217;s first name, but coming to America, I&#8217;ve accepted that it&#8217;ll forever be understood as a surname. If at times it gets attributed to my father, so be it. He is an unceasingly kind man. What little I have to offer the world, I have inherited its seed from him. I&#8217;d be happy to name it in his honor.</p><div class="subscription-widget-wrap-editor" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://thehyacinthgarden.com/subscribe?&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Subscribe&quot;,&quot;language&quot;:&quot;en&quot;}" data-component-name="SubscribeWidgetToDOM"><div class="subscription-widget show-subscribe"><div class="preamble"><p class="cta-caption">Thanks for reading The Hyacinth Garden! Subscribe for free to receive new posts and support my work.</p></div><form class="subscription-widget-subscribe"><input type="email" class="email-input" name="email" placeholder="Type your email&#8230;" tabindex="-1"><input type="submit" class="button primary" value="Subscribe"><div class="fake-input-wrapper"><div class="fake-input"></div><div class="fake-button"></div></div></form></div></div>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[Words-of Assembling-he, son-David, King in-Jerusalem]]></title><description><![CDATA[My translated rendition of the first 11 lines of Ecclesiastes, my favorite book in the bible, into in an experimental verse form of my own creation.]]></description><link>https://thehyacinthgarden.com/p/words-of-assembling-he-son-david</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://thehyacinthgarden.com/p/words-of-assembling-he-son-david</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Neeraj]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Thu, 13 Aug 2026 21:27:31 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!smMS!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fd6ef6d75-f767-46f9-a2bd-206847d35467_5712x4284.jpeg" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Here is the first piece I&#8217;m going to publish online of what I&#8217;m going to call my &#8220;hyper-literals.&#8221; </p><p>This is a translation form / verse type that I first made to translate into English phrases or expressions phrases from Tamil (one of the languages I grew up speaking) that I found beautiful, but whose beauty I couldn&#8217;t always find a way to fully represent in standard translation. </p><p>The verse form essentially attempts a morpheme-by-morpheme translation from a source language into something English-intelligible, using exclusively English vocabulary.</p><p>Ecclesiastes (or Koholet) tells the story of King Solomon as he enters old age and reflects on all the endeavors of his life, slowly coming to terms with the meaningless of all things. There are no easy religious answers it tries to present. It&#8217;s a true work of art in how its greatest offerings to us are questions, not answers.</p><p>I&#8217;ve remarked to my friends on a few occasions that I sometimes think of my life before Ecclesiastes and my life after Ecclesiastes. There are whole categories all of my past behaviour that I remember from time to time and then think to myself, &#8220;It&#8217;s alright. That was before I read Ecclesiastes.&#8221; </p><p>I think the only other book I can saw that about with as much confidence is Tirukurral.</p><h2>Translation, Hyper-Literal</h2><div class="preformatted-block" data-component-name="PreformattedTextBlockToDOM"><label class="hide-text" contenteditable="false">Text within this block will maintain its original spacing when published</label><pre class="text">1. Words-of Assembling-he, son-David, King in-Jerusalem 

2. Mist-(and)-Mists, said-he Assembling-he, the-all (is) mist

3. What profit (is there)  for-the-human <em>(for-the-Adam)</em> in-all toil-his that-will-he-toil under the-sun?

4. Generation going-he and-generation coming-he, but-the-land for-forever standing-she <sup>1</sup>

5. And-will-he-rise the-sun and-returning-he, and-to-post-his returning-gasping-he. And rising-he he there (again)

6. Going-he to-south and-turning-he to-north, turning-he turning-he the-wind <sup>2</sup>, and-on-circuits-his returning-he the-wind

7. All-the-monsoon-river-wadis going-they to-the-sea, (but) the-sea being-not full. To-post that-the-monsoon-river-wadis going-they, there they returning-they for-go (again) 

8. All-words-things growing-weary, no-will-be-able-he any-man to-be-spoken. Not-to-be-made-full the eye to-see (is). And-not-to-be-made-full the ear from-to-hear.

9. What-that-became-he is that-will-he-be, and-what-that-was-done-he is that-will-he-be-done. And there-exists-not all-new under the-sun.

10. There-exists word-thing that-will-say-he "See-this! New it-is." Already was-he, in-ages that from-before-us <em>(from-to-faces-our)</em>.

11. There-exists-not memory for-the-first; and-also for-the-laters that-will-they-be, no-will-he-be for-them memory be-will with to-the-last.
</pre></div><h2>Notes</h2><p><sup>1 </sup>One theme that I saw so clearly in the original Hebrew that obviously cannot be translated into English is the gender of the nouns that the speaker chose to use. I think it comes out, using my pidgin-translation the clearest here. Where the choice of word (generation / &#1491;&#1468;&#1493;&#1465;&#1512; / dor) to describe people as they come and go are masculine, but the word for the earth or the land is feminine. </p><p>It really does feel to me like there&#8217;s a small commentary there about men running around with their heads on fire, driven around by burning existential dread to make their lives meaningful, while the women are so much more capable of finding peace and stability amid the meaningless of existence, which is clear to them as well.</p><p>Other instances in this passage that, I feel reflect this, is Line 6. There the word for &#8220;circuits&#8221; is in the feminine plural form. My pidgin system for Biblical Hebrew encodes noun plurals, like English, independent of gender, so it isn&#8217;t reflected even in my translation above. I want to find a way to pull out those hidden gender markers while still preserving the poetry of the text. </p><p>I wish there was another example of this phenomenon in the above lines to make this gendered dynamic clear, but I&#8217;ll leave it by noting that all of the nouns chosen to mirror the going and coming and futile nature of existence (the sun, the wind, the rivers) are all masculine. And when the place they return to that is stable also happens to be masculine (the sea is a good example), they are written to avoid any explicit gender marker. Contrast this with the &#8220;land&#8221;, which is given a verb so that her gender is made clearer.  </p><p><sup>2 </sup>One thing that stood out to me when reading it in original Hebrew (and perhaps it could be and this could be an indication of just the fact that it was much harder for me than reading it in English), but the feeling of exhaustion is just so much more clearer in the original text. The King James, for example, instead of repeating the verb as is done in the original Masoretic, it just says &#8220;whirling about continually&#8221;</p><h3>King James Translation</h3><p>Here&#8217;s the King James Translation of the same 11 lines to help you follow along if you need!</p><div class="preformatted-block" data-component-name="PreformattedTextBlockToDOM"><label class="hide-text" contenteditable="false">Text within this block will maintain its original spacing when published</label><pre class="text">1:1 The words of the Preacher, the son of David, king in Jerusalem.

1:2 Vanity of vanities, saith the Preacher, vanity of vanities; all is vanity.

1:3 What profit hath a man of all his labour which he taketh under the sun?

1:4 One generation passeth away, and another generation cometh: but the earth abideth for ever.

1:5 The sun also ariseth, and the sun goeth down, and hasteth to his place where he arose.

1:6 The wind goeth toward the south, and turneth about unto the north; it whirleth about continually, and the wind returneth again according to his circuits.

1:7 All the rivers run into the sea; yet the sea is not full; unto the place from whence the rivers come, thither they return again.

1:8 All things are full of labour; man cannot utter it: the eye is not satisfied with seeing, nor the ear filled with hearing.

1:9 The thing that hath been, it is that which shall be; and that which is done is that which shall be done: and there is no new thing under the sun.

1:10 Is there any thing whereof it may be said, See, this is new? it hath been already of old time, which was before us.

1:11 There is no remembrance of former things; neither shall there be any remembrance of things that are to come with those that shall come after.</pre></div><h3>Note to Literary Agents</h3><p>I end all of the content I make about my hyper-literal verse form with a call to any literary agents watching/reading. </p><p>I have a manuscript nearing completion in which alternating  passages are written in a similar experimental verse form, combining English vocabulary with Tamil syntax and morphology. I myself grew up speaking Tamil and English at home.</p><p>Its first chapter has already been published in The Black Warrior Review&#8217;s 2026 Summer Edition (and they didn&#8217;t even know about its linguistic origins until after they accepted the submission; I suppose they just felt it naturally poetic).</p><p>In my view, Tamil makes for much better reading in this kind of morpheme-by-morpheme translation, because of its agglutinative nature. Performing it in person in the underground poetry scene in New York always edifies my belief that most English-language speakers are able to follow along effectively, with effort but without great issue. </p><p>Below is a brief synopsis of the novel.</p><blockquote><p><em>America Is The World</em>  tells the story of Narasimha, a young man as he first comes of age in rural Tamil Nadu. There, his frustrations grow with the prejudices and suffocating social norms, particularly around love and relationships, of his homeland. There he dreams idly of one day living in America, a land he has only seen on television and in movies, a land he dreams is free of prejudice and hatred&#8212;a land where he believes love blooms free. </p><p>When his life in Tamil Nadu begins to fall apart, he accepts a coyote smuggler&#8217;s offer to bring him to the United States, where he is promised work as a meat packer. He accepts the offer, but he soon discovers that his new home is far from what he imagined. Made to work 12-hour shifts for months on end with only a few hours of sleep each night, the physical toll as well as the emotional disassociation required to slaughter animals on an industrial scale soon begin to pull apart his consciousness, as he begins to self-medicate with hard drugs.</p><p>Through his journey, he comes to find the beauty and the horror in the American dream. Although it tells a painful story of immigration and disillusion, the work never lets go hidden its love for this land and its people. </p><p>The novel is far from auto-biographical, but it mirrors my own story with America. I have come to love America more than most Americans can understand, as someone who&#8217;s had to fight for every squared inch of his place within it.</p></blockquote><p>My running joke with my friends Yitz and Yeshaya is that they&#8217;ll throw me a Bar Mitzvah once I earn a literary agent to represent this book. If you live in New York, dear literary agent, I&#8217;d be more than happy to invite you. </p><h3>Notes of Infinite Thanks</h3><p>Thank you so much to my dear friends Yeshaya and Yitzchak. This would not have been possible without your help. Thank you for your patience with me, even onto the late night. Without you, I would have gone mad trying to understand what AI slop I could trust and what AI slop I couldn&#8217;t. I don&#8217;t know what austerity I&#8217;d performed in a previous life to be given friends who could so effortlessly explain the grammar of Biblical Hebrew in their apartment over beer. </p><p>The two of you have helped me through so much in life already, before I had even considered asking you for help with this.</p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!smMS!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fd6ef6d75-f767-46f9-a2bd-206847d35467_5712x4284.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!smMS!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fd6ef6d75-f767-46f9-a2bd-206847d35467_5712x4284.jpeg 424w, 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stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" class="lucide lucide-maximize2 lucide-maximize-2"><polyline points="15 3 21 3 21 9"></polyline><polyline points="9 21 3 21 3 15"></polyline><line x1="21" x2="14" y1="3" y2="10"></line><line x1="3" x2="10" y1="21" y2="14"></line></svg></button></div></div></div></a></figure></div><div class="preformatted-block" data-component-name="PreformattedTextBlockToDOM"><label class="hide-text" contenteditable="false">Text within this block will maintain its original spacing when published</label><pre class="text">   Last night at sundown, strolling past a grove in Prospect Park, heading back to the subway from an evening we spent picnicking out in a clearing,
   With the night, left free by the setting sun, painting the path before us in darkness, I heard my divine friend Celia&#8217;s divine girlfriend Shelby sing,
   To me, and to dear Keegan in between, about how close to nature she feels, when she's in the Rockaways, when she's out there surfing.

   Out there on a single plank of wood over the freezing water. Out there alone, far from man. Out there completely in the ocean's hand.
   Learning to work with the waves as they come. Trying to be brave. Trying not to fall into the water and get swept back to land.
   Trying to pick herself back up. Trying not to spend all the sun's allotted time waiting for her nerves to cool. Preparing to launch herself back into the water from the sand.

   And after every tender goodbye lay said, on my walk back home alone, I thought to myself, "Isn&#8217;t that all there is to life's great show?" 
   Out here in this ocean of chance. Bracing for each wave, of happiness and of sorrow. Here in the whimsy of this world's every erratic throe. 
   Trying to enjoy the highs. Trying not to tip over on the lows.</pre></div><div class="subscription-widget-wrap-editor" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://thehyacinthgarden.com/subscribe?&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Subscribe&quot;,&quot;language&quot;:&quot;en&quot;}" data-component-name="SubscribeWidgetToDOM"><div class="subscription-widget show-subscribe"><div class="preamble"><p class="cta-caption">Thanks for reading The Hyacinth Garden! 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And you told me to never to worry at all, that it&#8217;s easy when it&#8217;s for someone you care for, all the means through all the ends.]]></description><link>https://thehyacinthgarden.com/p/poem-a-kiss-on-the-forehead-under</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://thehyacinthgarden.com/p/poem-a-kiss-on-the-forehead-under</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Neeraj]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Fri, 07 Aug 2026 21:58:51 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!cZKQ!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F518433bb-602d-4036-8dfd-b03ae7dab00c_1080x1350.png" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" 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   But called for you still, to come meet my friends, as they themselves met my friends.
   Because I wanted you to see all the beauty in them; because I wanted them to see all the beauty in you.
   And you told me to never to worry at all, that it&#8217;s easy when it&#8217;s for someone you care for, all the means through all the ends. 

   And I put my hand on your shoulder, and you turned, and we came to a stop, under a streetlight in Prospect Park.
   And I put my hand on your cheek, and kissed you on your forehead, brushing aside your hair.  
   And the hug you returned has never since ended, because I still go back to that spot over my heart where it left its mark. 
   I still ring your words back to me, thinking, "What little else have I ever needed more in this life? What little else, more than someone who cares?"</pre></div>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[Poem: All the two-sided platforms along the L train]]></title><description><![CDATA[Longing for love on the L train. Modified Petrarchan Sonnet.]]></description><link>https://thehyacinthgarden.com/p/poem-all-the-two-sided-platforms</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://thehyacinthgarden.com/p/poem-all-the-two-sided-platforms</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Neeraj]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Sun, 02 Aug 2026 19:20:49 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!macc!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fcb1000c8-e609-483f-8be1-15d98fa0444b_1080x1350.png" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!macc!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fcb1000c8-e609-483f-8be1-15d98fa0444b_1080x1350.png" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source 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stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" class="lucide lucide-maximize2 lucide-maximize-2"><polyline points="15 3 21 3 21 9"></polyline><polyline points="9 21 3 21 3 15"></polyline><line x1="21" x2="14" y1="3" y2="10"></line><line x1="3" x2="10" y1="21" y2="14"></line></svg></button></div></div></div></a></figure></div><div class="preformatted-block" data-component-name="PreformattedTextBlockToDOM"><label class="hide-text" contenteditable="false">Text within this block will maintain its original spacing when published</label><pre class="text">   Can you name all the two-sided platforms along the L train?
   I think I can now, even if only by 
   Remembrance of all our goodbyes.
   Of all those lonely nights and days, as the sky outside poured down sun, or poured down rain.

   All those moments, from late last year, to late last night,
   Waiting with you as I felt myself slowly go insane,
   For the delayed Manhattan-bound and delayed Brooklyn-bound train
   To come roaring, and pull us apart, out of each other's sight.

   Last night I held you in my arms, looking down into the twin universes in your eyes so tired, 
   As you held your gaze up towards me, and spoke of all the abodes 
   You once rested in but never will again, of how only New York can ever be home, 
   For souls like ours, torn between continents, those that have only ever sought a stable heart(h) to rest their fire.


   After such a tender embrace, how could I, of your feelings for me, 
   And thou, of my feelings for thee, still be left so uncertain?
   I'm not sure either. Perhaps it's some trick of your beauty, 
   Or perhaps some trick fragile hearts, on themselves, play when continually broken:
   To never trust good love when it comes, even when it lands at their feet.

   Or perhaps we've lived this life before, and its memories only come back in conversation.
   Perhaps you've always been Beatrice. And perhaps I've always been Dante, (only less creepy). 
   Perhaps, no matter the generation and no matter the nation,
   Love, in all my lives to come, will always play out like we've here seen.
   Perhaps it's only fate for one, o' bella, like you, to send this over-feeling mind of mine, like Majnun's, into distraction.

   Perhaps it's just that every aspiring Petrarch like me,
   Needs his heart torn asunder by a Laura,
   Someone always betwixt his fingers, yet somehow always out of reach,
   Someone always so near, yet somehow always so far.</pre></div><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!AYW0!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F8a364543-b95d-4dcb-8e6b-e6f63cbd2ecd_1080x1350.png" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!AYW0!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F8a364543-b95d-4dcb-8e6b-e6f63cbd2ecd_1080x1350.png 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!AYW0!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F8a364543-b95d-4dcb-8e6b-e6f63cbd2ecd_1080x1350.png 848w, 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